Chapter 1

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The plane from Honolulu was small and loud, and Malia Kahananui pressed her forehead to the window as the island of Hawaiʻi came up underneath them like something rising out of a dream.

She had made this flight every summer for as long as she could remember. She had made it so many times that she thought she could not be surprised by it anymore. But every year, when the black lava fields came into view, and the green shoulders of Mauna Loa showed themselves above the clouds, she felt her stomach do the old familiar turn, half excitement and half something else. Something she did not have a good word for.

"You okay, honey?" her mother asked from the middle seat.

Malia nodded without turning her head. "Looking."

"Look all you want. You only get to see it for the first time once a year."

Her mother, Lani, was flying with her this time because of the funeral of a cousin Malia had never met. After two days on the Big Island, her mother would fly back to Honolulu for work. Malia would stay the whole summer at Tutu's house, the way she did every summer. Her father, Keoni, was in Alaska until August, studying coral reefs that were supposed to be in the tropics but had somehow ended up thinking they wanted to live somewhere cold. He had laughed when he said it to her on the phone, but there was a tiredness under the laugh.

The plane bumped and began its long slide down toward the runway. Out the window, the coast of the Big Island looked both enormous and small. Enormous because it went on and on, a shore of lava and palm and pale road. Small because she could see the whole of Tutu's village in a single glance, once she knew where to look.

There it was. A smudge of green. A spot of white that might have been the church, or might have been Mr. Aoki's truck. A line of road curving to the water. Somewhere in that smudge, her grandmother was waiting.

"Phones away, please," said the flight attendant, passing down the aisle.

Malia turned her phone over. The screen went dark.

She kept her forehead against the window.

"Malia," her mother said quietly, "this summer is going to be different."

"Different how?"

Her mother was quiet for a moment. "Just different. Tutu has something in mind. I'll let her tell you."

Malia glanced at her mother sideways. Her mother's face had the careful look it got when she was holding back a smile.

"Is it a surprise?"

"It's a gift," her mother said. "I think. If you know how to take it."

Malia did not know what to say to that, so she said nothing. The plane dropped. The wheels kissed the runway. The engines roared themselves backward into silence. The other passengers began to stand up and pull bags out of the overhead bins.

Malia took one last look out the window at the island. It was green and black and gold in the late afternoon light, and the ocean beyond it looked like a piece of polished stone.

"Okay," she whispered to it. "I'm here."

***

Tutu was at the little airport in a yellow dress with white flowers on it, and she had a lei of pikake flowers around her neck that she took off and put around Malia's neck as soon as Malia came through the gate.

"Aloha, my kolohe girl," she said, pressing her forehead and her nose softly against Malia's in the honi, the old greeting. Her breath smelled of coffee and a tiny bit of ginger. "You grew."

"I didn't," Malia said, laughing. "You shrunk."

"Maybe I did." Tutu stepped back and held Malia at arm's length and studied her. "Yes. I shrunk. That is my summer project. To keep shrinking until I fit inside a coconut and you can take me home."

"Mama," said Lani, coming up behind with the bags, "be good."

"I am always good." Tutu kissed her daughter and then stepped back and looked at the two of them together. For a moment her face did something Malia did not recognize. A softness. Almost a sadness. Then it was gone, and Tutu was herself again, brisk and warm. "Come. The truck is hot. The fish is hotter. Let's go before everything burns."

The truck was an old blue Ford that had belonged to Tutu's husband, Papa Nālu, who had died when Malia was six. It still smelled, faintly, of his pipe tobacco. Malia always breathed it in deep when she climbed into the cab. It was a way of saying hello to him.

"Aloha, Papa," she whispered.

Tutu heard her. She did not say anything, but she squeezed Malia's knee once as she turned the key.

They drove out of the airport and onto the highway that ran along the coast. The sun was low, and the sea on their right was the color of wet silver. On their left, the lava fields stretched up the shoulder of the mountain, black and cracked and old.

Malia leaned her head on her mother's shoulder and watched the road and listened to Tutu humming, and she felt the something-she-did-not-have-a-word-for come up in her stomach again.

Home, maybe. Except her home was in Honolulu. She had her bed there, and her school, and her friends, and the ramen place on the corner that Mr. Takeda ran.

Not-home, then. Or a second home. A home that belonged to her grandmother, and to an older Malia who came out only here, among these black hills and this silver sea.

"You are quiet," Tutu said.

"I'm listening."

"Good," said Tutu. "That's good. Listen all summer, keiki. That's going to be the big job."

Malia did not know what she meant. But she did not ask. Sometimes with Tutu you waited.

***

Tutu's house was small and wooden and painted a color that had once been blue and was now the soft gray that things become by the ocean. It sat back from the road under two old mango trees, and a path of flat stones led to the front steps. Chickens scratched around the edge of the yard. A fat black cat named Pōpoki sat on the porch railing and watched them come with the patient eyes of a creature who had been watching this family come and go for fifteen years.

"Pōpoki," Malia called. "I'm back."

The cat blinked slowly. He did not move until she was close enough to rub the top of his head. Then he arched and purred and pretended that he had missed her, though Malia knew he had probably not thought about her once all year.

Inside, the house smelled the way it always smelled. Like coconut soap and old wood and a little bit of the sea, which came in through the open windows. The floor was bare planks, worn smooth. The ceiling was low. There were windows on every side, and a lanai in the back that looked out over a small green yard and, beyond that, over the water.

On the wall above the sofa hung a piece of kapa cloth, the old Hawaiian bark cloth, printed in brown and rust and deep, deep black. It was the first thing any visitor saw. Malia had seen it a thousand times. Still, when she walked into the room, her eyes went to it. It had patterns like waves, and patterns like leaves, and a pattern in the middle that she had never been able to name, a kind of open diamond that felt, somehow, like a doorway.

"My mother made that one," Tutu said, coming in behind her. "Not your mother. My mother. Your great-grandmother Leilani."

"I know. You told me."

"I tell you every summer."

"Yes."

"I will tell you every summer I am alive, and then you will tell your children every summer you are alive, and that is how it works."

Malia smiled. She set her bag down by the little bedroom in the back that was always hers — the one with the blue blanket and the window that faced the ocean. Outside, the sun was going down. The sea was turning pink.

"Go wash," Tutu said. "Then eat. Then sleep. Tomorrow is tomorrow."

"What's tomorrow?"

Tutu looked at her over her reading glasses, which she had not put on to read anything, only to look over at her granddaughter.

"Tomorrow I will tell you," she said. "And you will have a decision to make."

***

Dinner that night was simple. Fresh fish, which Tutu had bought from a man who came to the door in the morning with a cooler in the back of his pickup. Rice. A bowl of pickled cucumber that Tutu called her namasu. A slice of papaya at the end.

Malia ate slowly. She was tired from the flight in a way she had not expected to be. It was not the body kind of tired. It was the kind of tired that came from changing islands.

"Tutu, what is the decision about?"

"I told you. Tomorrow."

"You are teasing me."

"A little. It is my right as your grandmother."

"Is it a bad decision?"

"There are no bad decisions. Only wrong answers to good decisions. I will not give you a wrong answer to worry about. I will give you a good decision to think about. It is different."

Her mother was smiling at her coffee cup, trying not to laugh.

"Mom. You know."

"I know a little."

"Tell me."

"No."

"Mom."

"I gave Tutu the floor. It is her floor. I am a visitor on her floor."

After dinner Malia went out on the lanai in her pajamas. The sky was enormous. She had forgotten, between visits, how many stars there were. In Honolulu you could see some stars. Here the sky was soaked in them. The Milky Way ran across the top of the sky like a river of light.

She called her father. He was still in Alaska, where it was only nine at night for him. He picked up on the third ring.

"Hi, keiki."

"Hi, Daddy. I am at Tutu's."

"I know you are. Tell me about it."

She did. She told him about the plane and the smell of the truck and Pōpoki the cat and the kapa on the wall. She did not tell him about the decision, because it was not hers yet to tell.

"Dad, what do you think Tutu wants to tell me?"

"I don't know for sure. But keiki, whatever it is, listen with two ears."

"I always listen."

"Listen with the ears behind the ears too. You know what I mean."

"I think I do."

"I love you."

"Love you, Dad."

She went to bed. She thought she would lie awake. Instead she was asleep before she could finish counting the patterns she remembered on the kapa on the wall.

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Malia woke to the sound of roosters and the smell of coffee.

It took her a moment to remember where she was. The ceiling above her was wooden and low. A gecko sat on it, watching her. A breeze moved the white curtain at the window, and through the window she could see a square of sky and the top of a mango tree and a sliver of sea.

"Big Island," she whispered to herself.

The gecko blinked.

She got up and padded out to the kitchen in her bare feet. Her mother was already at the table in her travel clothes, drinking coffee and writing something on her laptop. Tutu was at the stove, pouring batter into a cast-iron pan.

"Pancakes?" Malia asked hopefully.

"Banana pancakes," Tutu said. "Because my granddaughter is here. Because it is a special morning. Because I felt like it. Pick the reason you like."

"All three."

"Greedy keiki."

Her mother laughed without looking up from the laptop. "Eat quickly, honey. I have to leave for the airport in an hour."

The reminder hit Malia in the chest. She had known her mother was leaving today. Still, the words made it real.

"Can I come with you?"

"To the airport? Of course."

"No. Back to Honolulu. Just kidding."

"I know you're kidding."

Malia sat down at the table and watched her grandmother cook. Tutu wore an apron with birds on it and her long gray hair was tied up in a loose bun with a red hibiscus stuck into it. She moved around the kitchen the way she did everything, without hurrying and without wasting.

"Tutu," Malia said, "you said you had to tell me something."

"I did say that."

"Is this the telling time?"

"Eat first. Then telling time."

So they ate. The pancakes were soft and warm and tasted of banana and butter. Malia ate three. Her mother ate one and looked at her watch.

When the plates were clean, Tutu poured herself another cup of coffee and sat down across from Malia. She folded her hands on the table. They were small hands, brown, with knobby knuckles and fingernails clipped short.

"Malia," she said. "I have been thinking about this all year."

"About what?"

"About what I want to give you this summer."

Malia went still. Something in her grandmother's voice had changed. It was the way Tutu spoke when things were not jokes.

"I am seventy-two years old," Tutu said. "That is not old for a mango tree. It is not old for a tortoise. It is not young for a woman. I have a job, a job I have had since I was your age, since my mother took me into her workroom and showed me what her mother had showed her. The job is to make. Kapa. Masks for the old dances. The patterns. The patience that goes with the patterns."

Malia had visited Tutu's workroom many times. It was a small separate building behind the house that smelled of bark and dye and wood. She had been allowed to watch, sometimes, when Tutu was working. She had never been allowed to do.

"I want to teach you," Tutu said. "This summer. The beginning of it. Not everything. Nobody learns everything in a summer. But the beginning. The hands part. The breath part."

Malia's mother had closed her laptop. She was watching them both.

"Oh," Malia said. Her throat felt thick. "Tutu. Really?"

"Really."

"Yes. Yes, of course I —"

Tutu held up her hand. "Wait."

Malia waited.

"It is not a yes-of-course thing," Tutu said. "It is a decision. I have not taught anyone. Not in all these years. There was nobody I wanted to teach. Your mother, she has her work. Kai has his hands, but his head runs in another direction. And there are no students from the school — not yet. You, I think about. I have always thought about you."

"Tutu —"

"I want you to think about it too. Not today. Think about it until tomorrow morning. Think about what it means. Because if you say yes, then I am going to be hard on you. Not mean. Hard. The way my mother was hard on me. Because I am trusting you with something, and you are going to have to be worth the trust."

Malia was trying not to cry. She did not know exactly why. It was not a sad thing her grandmother was saying. It was a big thing. Maybe big was the reason.

"Tomorrow morning," Tutu said. "You tell me yes, or you tell me no. Both are good answers. Only a maybe is not a good answer."

"Okay."

"Okay." Tutu nodded once. Then she pushed herself up from the table. "Now. Your mother's plane will not wait for us."

Malia's mother came around the table and hugged her from behind.

"Whatever you decide," her mother whispered, "it is yours to decide."

***

The drive to the airport was too short. Her mother kept a hand on Malia's knee most of the way. When they got there, her mother hugged her hard.

"Listen to her, keiki," her mother said. "Even when she says things that sound like they are about masks. They are not always about masks."

"I will."

"And call me."

"I will."

"And eat."

"Mom."

"I know."

And then her mother was gone, a small figure waving from the other side of the security line, and Malia and Tutu were walking back to the blue truck together, the air shimmering over the asphalt in the late morning heat.

Tutu did not try to talk. Malia was grateful.

They drove home past the lava fields. A small white flower was blooming out of a crack in the black rock. Malia watched it go by.

She thought of the wall above the sofa, and the piece of kapa hanging there, and the pattern in the middle that looked like a doorway.

A doorway. That was the word.

"Tutu," she said.

"Yes."

"I know my answer."

"Tomorrow morning."

"I know it now."

Tutu kept her eyes on the road. But her mouth turned up at one corner, just a little.

"Good," she said. "Then think about it once more tonight, so that when you tell me tomorrow, you are telling me twice."

***

That afternoon Kai came by. He rode up on his bicycle, which was red and much too small for him, since he had grown. He left the bicycle leaning against the mango tree and came up to the lanai with a paper bag of lilikoʻi from his mother's garden.

"Eh, cuz."

"Eh, Kai."

"You look weird."

"I look the same as I always look."

"Nope. You look like you are thinking."

"I think every day."

"Sure, but usually you look it on the outside less."

He sat down on the lanai steps and started peeling a passion fruit with his thumbnail.

"Tutu told me she is going to teach you."

Malia stared at him. "What. How do you know."

"She told my mom. My mom told me. My mom was like, 'she is finally going to teach.' And I was like, 'Malia?' And my mom was like, 'who else?' And I was like, 'I don't know, me, probably.' And my mom laughed at me for like ten minutes."

"Kai —"

"Nah, nah. I'm not mad. I'm teasing. My hands are too rough for that kind of work. I tried to help Tutu sweep the workroom one time and she watched me sweep for about four seconds and then she took the broom back and said, 'Kai, go climb a tree.'"

Malia laughed. "She did not say that."

"She absolutely said that."

He handed her a piece of the passion fruit pulp, and they sat sucking on the sweet-tart yellow stuff and not saying anything for a while.

"Kai."

"Mm."

"Do you think I can do it?"

"Do what."

"Learn. To make the kapa. The mask. All of it."

Kai wiped his thumb on his shorts. He looked out at the ocean.

"Yeah," he said. "I think you can do it."

"Why?"

"I don't know. You're stubborn. In the good way. You get mad at stuff but then you don't quit. Remember the spelling bee, like, two years ago?"

"Kai, that is embarrassing."

"You lost on 'rhinoceros.'"

"I spelled it with a 'p' for some reason. I don't want to talk about it."

"Okay, but then all summer, whenever you saw a rhinoceros in a book, you spelled it out loud."

"So?"

"So that is who you are. You mess up, you get mad, you do it twelve more times. Tutu is not going to find anyone else with that brain. Just go."

Malia chewed the inside of her cheek.

"Thanks, Kai."

"Don't thank me. Just don't get all hotshot about it."

"I will not get hotshot about it."

"You a little bit might."

"Kai —"

"I am just warning you." He grinned. "I will be watching. First sign of hotshot, I will throw you in the ocean."

"Fair."

They sat on the steps. Malia peeled another passion fruit. The sea was blue. The sun was going down.

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The first morning of lessons began badly.

Malia woke up to the sound of Tutu already in the kitchen. The light through the window was pale and cool. It was barely past six.

She did what every human being under the age of eighty does when they wake up in a strange room. She reached for her phone.

There were seventeen messages. Fourteen of them were from the group chat with her friends from school — Keilani, Hana, Brooke, and Lila. They had been talking all night without her. A meme. Another meme. A picture of someone's dog. A long, complicated conversation about whether Keilani should tell Malcolm that she liked him or wait for him to figure it out himself. A vote. Hana had voted tell him. Brooke had voted wait. Lila had voted, confusingly, "depends on the weather."

Malia smiled and lay on her back in the bed and typed with her thumbs.

She erased it.

She read it over. It sounded weird. It sounded like she was bragging about something, which was strange, because she was not even sure it was a thing to brag about. She erased that too.

"Malia!" Tutu called from the kitchen. "Breakfast is breakfast. Come eat while it is breakfast-shaped."

"Coming."

Malia scrolled for two more minutes. Then she got out of bed, still holding the phone, reading as she walked.

"Good morning, kolohe," Tutu said without turning around. "What did you decide."

"Yes."

"Yes what."

"Yes I want to learn."

Tutu turned. Her face was serious but her eyes were warm.

"Good," she said. "Then eat. Then the workroom. And the phone —"

Malia looked down at it. She had a new message from Keilani.

"— the phone," Tutu said, "stays in the house."

"It is in the house."

"You know what I mean."

"I can keep it on silent."

"No."

Malia looked up.

"No?"

"In the workroom," Tutu said, "the phone stays in the house. I do not mean the workroom house. I mean the people house. The house with the beds. You do not bring the phone to work. You put it on the little table by the door when we walk outside to the workroom. It waits there."

"All morning?"

"All morning. Eat your breakfast."

Malia ate her breakfast. The pancakes were cold. She had been three minutes late coming out of her room, and the pancakes had remembered.

After breakfast Tutu rinsed the dishes and set them in the rack. Malia tried to do them but Tutu said no, not today, today is for the workroom. She dried her hands on her apron and said, "Ready?"

Malia still had her phone. She was in the middle of a reply to Keilani. She needed five more seconds.

"Hold on."

"Now."

"Tutu. Five seconds."

"Malia."

Malia looked up. Her grandmother's face was not angry. It was still and calm, the way the sea can be still and calm and also very large. It was an expression Malia had never quite seen before.

"Put the phone down."

Malia put the phone down on the little table by the door. She did not finish the message. It sat half-written in the box.

"Come," said Tutu. And she walked out of the house without looking back.

***

The workroom was behind the house, in a separate shed built of the same wood as the main house. The door was painted red. Inside, there was one window and a long wooden table and a wall of tools. There were bundles of bark tied with twine. There were shallow bowls of dry dyes — yellows and reds and deep browns and black. There were long sticks of different woods, some polished, some rough. There was a wooden mallet that hung on a hook above the table, alone.

The mallet was the only thing on its own hook. Everything else was crowded together. The mallet had space around it.

Malia noticed the space.

"Sit," Tutu said, pointing at a wooden stool. "Today we are not working with our hands. Today we are only sitting."

"Sitting?"

"Sitting. Looking. I am going to tell you about wauke. The tree. And then you are going to tell me what I said."

"That's it?"

"That is it for today."

"Tutu —"

"Yes?"

"I thought we were going to start."

"We are starting. This is starting."

Malia sat on the stool. She folded her hands in her lap because she did not know what else to do with them.

Tutu sat across from her, in a taller chair, and she began to tell her about wauke, the paper mulberry tree, which was brought to the islands long ago in canoes by the first people who came here from the south, and which had been cared for by those people and their children and their grandchildren for longer than any of them had counted. She told her that the tree liked shade and wet. That it was stripped of its inner bark at a certain age. That the inner bark became, with patience and water and tools, the cloth her grandmother was teaching her. That the cloth was called kapa. That kapa had been used for clothing, for blankets, for ceremony. That the patterns on the kapa were not decorations. They were memory. They were small writings.

Tutu spoke for what felt like a long time. Her voice was low and even.

Malia listened. She tried very hard to listen. The sun came through the one window and fell in a warm square across the floor. A fly buzzed against the glass.

Her phone was back in the house.

She wondered what Keilani had said back. She wondered if Keilani was mad that she had not finished her message. She wondered if Lila had said something funny. She wondered what time it was. She had left her watch at home. She wondered how long she had been sitting on this stool.

"Malia."

She jumped.

"What did I just say."

Malia opened her mouth. She closed it. She tried again.

"You said — you said that the bark is stripped —"

"What did I say about the patterns."

"The patterns are — they are like writing —"

"What did I say about the writing."

Malia looked at the floor.

Tutu was quiet for a while. She was not angry. She simply let the silence sit there, the way you let a bird sit on a fence without chasing it off.

"Malia," she said at last. "Where are you."

"Here."

"Where is here."

"The workroom."

"And where is your head."

Malia pressed her lips together. She did not want to cry on the first day.

"It is not here," she said.

"No. It is not." Tutu stood up. "Come. We are done for today."

"But I —"

"It is okay. First days are first days. Go swim. Go find Kai. Go use your phone. Tomorrow we begin again."

Malia walked out of the workroom. She walked across the yard to the house. She walked to the little table by the door and picked up the phone. There were twenty-three unread messages. Her thumb hovered over the screen.

Through the window, she could see Tutu still sitting in the workroom. Not reading. Not working. Just sitting. Her hands folded in her lap.

Malia looked at the phone. She looked at Tutu. She looked at the phone.

She put the phone down on the little table and did not pick it up again until after dinner.

***

That night, after dinner, Malia sat on her bed and read the messages.

Keilani had written a lot. She always wrote a lot. Most of it was about Malcolm, who had now done something confusing involving a baseball cap. Hana had sent a picture of her cat wearing a little bow tie. Brooke had sent a picture of a cloud that looked like a turtle. Lila had not written as much as the others, but she had written one message that said, "I hope your grandma's house is nice. Tell her I said hi even though she doesn't know me."

Malia wrote back to each of them. It took her almost an hour. At the end, she felt strangely empty, as if she had taken a long warm bath and then stood up too fast.

She put the phone down, face up, on her little bedside table.

She thought about the workroom. About the smell of bark water. About the square of sunlight on the floor. About the way she had failed to pay attention even though she had wanted to.

She picked up a book — a library book about the islands that her mother had packed for her — and opened it. There was a chapter about old Hawaiian crafts. She read a paragraph about kapa. Then she read it again. Then she read it a third time, because the first two times had gone straight through her head without stopping.

*Kapa was made not to be seen only but to be lived with. It warmed the sleeper, carried the newborn, wrapped the beloved dead. A piece of kapa in a household could be older than the youngest child and younger than the oldest grandmother. It was woven into the life of the family not by thread, for kapa is not woven, but by years.*

Malia read the words a fourth time. She put her finger on the word *years.*

Then she closed the book. She turned out the light. She lay in the dark and listened to the sea.

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"Today," Tutu said the next morning, "we go to gather."

She was wearing a big straw hat and holding two pairs of clippers. She handed one to Malia.

"Gather what?"

"Wauke. And some other things. You will see."

Malia had left the phone on the little table by the door. She had made a decision about this as she brushed her teeth. She had said to herself, in the mirror, "All morning." She had thought about her friends in Honolulu reading their phones at the mall, and she had felt a small tug. Then she had spit out the toothpaste and rinsed, and the tug had gone.

"Okay," she told Tutu. "I'm ready."

"Good."

They drove the blue truck up a dirt road that climbed the shoulder of the mountain. The trees on either side of the road got bigger and wetter. Malia could smell something green and alive, like crushed leaves and rain, even though it was not raining.

"Tutu, how far —"

"Far enough to be worth going. Not so far we can't come back."

"Tutu, that's not an answer."

"That's my answer."

Tutu pulled the truck off the road into a small clearing and cut the engine. The forest around them was loud with birds. A breeze moved the leaves and made a sound like water.

"This place," Tutu said, "is a wauke patch that my mother planted when I was eleven years old. She said, 'Kuʻulei, this patch is for your grandchildren.' I said, 'I don't have any grandchildren, Mama.' She said, 'Not yet.'"

Malia stood very still.

Tutu took her elbow. "Come. I will show you how to look."

They walked into the trees. Wauke, Tutu said, was not a big tree. It was slim and tall, with heart-shaped leaves. You could find it if you knew to look. They wanted only certain ones — young, straight, about the thickness of Malia's wrist.

"Why that thickness?" Malia asked.

"Because younger than that, the bark is weak. Older than that, the bark is thick and hard and the fibers are stiff. This thickness —" Tutu measured her own wrist with two fingers — "this is the thickness that gives us good cloth."

They walked for an hour, and Tutu showed Malia how to tell a good wauke from a bad one. Good ones stood straight. Bad ones leaned. Good ones had even leaves. Bad ones had leaves with spots and holes. A good one, Tutu said, had been cared for by the forest without knowing it. A bad one had been fighting.

"Everything has been fighting, Tutu."

"Not everything. Some things have been growing straight. It is worth knowing the difference."

They cut six trees, each of them small and young and clean. Tutu spoke to each tree before she cut. Not out loud. Her lips moved a little, and her eyes closed for a second.

"What are you saying to them?"

"I am saying thank you."

"Do you think they hear you?"

"I do not know what trees hear. But I hear myself. And that matters."

They tied the cut wauke into a bundle and carried it back toward the truck. On the way, Tutu stopped at a different kind of plant — low, with small yellow roots — and dug up a handful.

"This is ʻōlena," she said. "Turmeric. It makes yellow dye. There is a yellow in my kapa that comes from this root. My great-grandmother used this same yellow. Probably from a grandchild of the same plant."

"Is that why you planted the wauke patch? For the grandchildren of the plants?"

Tutu looked at her. She smiled.

"Yes," she said. "Exactly that."

Farther on, they stopped at a stream and Tutu pointed out a black rock in the water.

"That rock," she said, "we rub charcoal on it and we get our black dye. Kukui nut shells, burned. Rubbed. The rock becomes the inkstone."

"That's a lot of steps."

"Everything good is a lot of steps, kolohe."

By the time they got back to the truck, Malia's arms ached from carrying and her feet were muddy and her hair was full of little bits of leaf. She had not thought about her phone once.

She noticed this only when she was back in the truck, with the bundle of wauke across her lap, and she thought, *I forgot about my phone.*

And then she thought, *I am forgetting things in the forest.*

It was a strange feeling. Not a bad one. Like having taken off a sweater she had not realized she was wearing.

Tutu glanced over as she drove.

"Malia."

"Yes?"

"You were quiet up there. For a whole hour."

"I was listening."

"To what."

Malia thought about it. "To the forest. I think."

"And."

"And it was saying a lot."

Tutu grunted. It was the kind of grunt that meant more than most people's sentences.

"Good," she said. "Tomorrow we strip the bark. That is not listening. That is work. Sleep well tonight."

***

That evening, Tutu showed Malia how the bark would be stripped from the trees they had cut. They laid the wauke on a long board behind the workroom. Tutu took a small sharp tool and drew a careful line down the length of one. Then, with her fingers, she peeled the outer bark away from the inner.

"This," she said, lifting the pale, wet, creamy inner strip, "is what will become kapa. Not the outside. The inside."

"Like the tree's bones."

"No. The tree's bones are in the middle. This is closer to — think of it as the tree's underclothes."

Malia laughed.

"That is funny to you. Good. You are a child. But it is a real thing. The tree wears its hard bark outside, the way a person wears a hat. Underneath, soft. The soft part is what wraps us."

Malia reached out and touched a strip. It was cool and a little slippery.

"May I try?"

"Yes. Small line. Steady hand. Do not cut into the inner. Only through the outer. Feel for the change."

Malia took the tool. She pressed it against a cut tree. She drew. She felt the outer bark split. She felt, underneath, something softer. She stopped before she cut into it.

"Good," said Tutu. "Good feel."

They stripped six trees. Malia's back hurt by the end, and she had a small cut on her thumb from where the tool had slipped once, but there was a row of six pale, wet strips of inner bark laid out on the board.

"Now they soak," Tutu said. "For two days. Sometimes three. In rainwater. Rainwater is softer than tap water. It lets the fibers remember themselves."

"Fibers remember?"

"Everything remembers, keiki. Everything that has ever been alive remembers something. The fibers remember being in the tree. When we soak them, they loosen. They say, okay, we will stop being tree now. We will start being kapa."

"That is a nice way to think about it."

"It is a way to think about it. Whether it is true, you tell me in sixty years. Then you will know."

They put the strips into a big plastic tub of rainwater that sat in the shade behind the workroom. Tutu covered the tub with a mesh lid to keep bugs out. She set a stone on top.

"Done?"

"Done for today. Tomorrow, other things. In two or three days, back to the strips."

They walked back to the house. Malia's arms hung by her sides. They felt heavy and useful, in a new way.

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On the third morning, Tutu brought the mallet down from its hook.

She held it in both hands. It was not big. Smaller than a hammer. It was made of dark brown wood, carved with small grooves running along the length of the striking head. A pattern, fine and even, like the ribs of a leaf. The handle was smooth and worn in the middle from many hands.

"This is iʻe kuku," Tutu said. "A beater. It is the tool that turns the bark into cloth."

She held it out to Malia.

Malia took it. She was careful. She held it the way she had once seen her father hold a fossil in a museum, as if it might break if she breathed on it wrong.

"Who made it?"

"My grandmother. My mother's mother. Her name was Kaleimamo. She made it when my mother was a girl. She carved the grooves with a small chisel, a little each night, after the work of the day. Every groove is a little bit of her. My mother used it. I used it. Now you use it."

"Tutu. I can't."

"You can."

"I'll ruin it."

"You will not ruin it. A beater is a strong tool. It is also a patient one. It will wait for you to get better. That is what a good tool does."

Malia turned the mallet over in her hands. She could see the carving. She could feel the worn place on the handle where three generations of hands had held it. She put her own hand there. Her hand fit.

Of course it fit. It was a hand-shaped place. Any hand would fit there. Still, her eyes stung.

"Tutu, don't you want to keep it — for yourself — for —"

"For later?" Tutu laughed. "Later for what? I have had it all my life. Now it is your turn. I will keep the other one."

She opened a drawer in the worktable and took out a second mallet. It was plainer. Unworn. Smaller.

"This is my working one. I made it. It does the job. Yours is older. It does the job too. Better, in some ways. The grooves are finer. Your great-great-grandmother had good eyes."

Malia held the mallet tightly, as if someone might take it away from her. Then she forced herself to loosen her grip.

"I'll be careful."

"You will be careless sometimes. That is what happens. A tool that has never known a careless hand is not a real tool. It is a tool in a museum. That is a sad thing to be."

She laid a piece of bark — thick, stripped from the wauke they had gathered, and already soaked — on a long wooden block. The block had a slight hollow worn into the top of it.

"Watch," Tutu said.

She took her own mallet. She lifted it. She brought it down onto the bark. Not hard. Not soft. A steady sound. *Tock. Tock. Tock.*

The bark flattened and spread. A little.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

A little more. The fibers began to loosen. Tutu did not look at the bark. She looked at her own hand. Her arm moved with the rhythm of a slow, unworried thing.

After a minute, she stopped.

"You try."

Malia stepped up to the block. Her mallet — the old one — suddenly felt very heavy. She lifted it. She brought it down.

*Tack.*

The bark jumped sideways and fell off the block.

"Oh — sorry —"

"Not sorry. Again. Put the bark back. Hold it with the other hand until you get the feel."

Malia put the bark back on the block. She held it with her left hand. She raised the mallet with her right. She brought it down.

*Tock.*

This time it stayed.

"Good. Again."

*Tock.*

"Again."

*Tock. Tock. Tack. Tock.*

"Do not try to hit hard. Try to hit the same place many times in a row. That is harder than hitting hard."

Malia tried. Her arm ached after twenty hits. After fifty, her shoulder hurt. After a hundred, she was sweating into her eyes. The bark had barely flattened. It was still a sorry, bumpy little strip.

"Tutu, this is going to take forever."

"Yes."

"Tutu —"

"Would you rather it take forever or take no time at all."

Malia looked at her. "Take no time at all."

"Why."

"Because then it would be done."

"And then what."

"And then I would — I would go do something else."

"Something else like what."

"I don't know."

Tutu nodded slowly. "Exactly. You do not know. That is the trouble with things that are done fast. There is always an 'and then what.' Slow things do not have that trouble. They are all middle."

Malia thought about this. She did not entirely understand it. But she set the mallet down with both hands and stretched her shoulder and said, "Okay. Again."

She lifted the mallet. She brought it down.

*Tock.*

***

That night, before bed, Malia sat at the little table in the kitchen and Tutu brought out a small ink bottle and a scrap of paper.

"Draw for me," Tutu said.

"Draw what?"

"One of the patterns on the wall. The one you like. Do not try to copy it perfect. Draw it by feeling."

Malia looked up at the kapa above the sofa. She looked back down at the paper. She dipped the pen.

She drew the wave pattern. It was shaky. It was a little uneven. She drew it three times. Each time it was a little better.

"Good," said Tutu. "Do this every night. For five minutes. Not more. Not less. When I was your age I drew five minutes every night before I slept. My mother said, 'Go to bed with the pattern in your hand. It will go with you into dreams. Tomorrow your hand will remember it in a way your eye cannot.'"

"Did it work?"

"I think so. I am not sure. But I still draw five minutes every night. So it must be working on something."

She took the pen from Malia's hand. She drew, very quickly, the wave pattern. It came out of her hand like water out of a faucet. Easy. Clean. Not thinking.

Malia watched.

"Tutu. I want my hand to do that."

"Then draw every night."

"Every night."

"Five minutes. Then sleep."

Malia nodded. She put the paper in her notebook. She put the notebook on her bedside table.

That night, she dreamed she was underwater, and the waves over her head were the pattern on the wall, drawn in slow light.

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By the end of the first week, Malia's hands had blisters. Then her blisters had blisters. Then her blisters started to turn into small hard pads. Tutu looked at them one morning and grunted approvingly.

"Good. You are growing your work hands."

"They hurt."

"Of course they hurt. You are making them into something they were not."

"What were they before?"

"Phone hands."

Malia laughed despite herself.

But the work was hard. The first strip of kapa she made was uneven and full of holes. The second was smaller and not much better. The third tore in half while she was beating it and she had to start over. On the fourth, she forgot to soak the bark long enough and it would not flatten properly.

"It is dry," Tutu said, looking at it. "It needed another day."

"You didn't tell me that."

"I told you three times."

"You told me twice."

"I told you once at the beginning and once yesterday and just now was the third."

Malia threw the mallet down on the table.

"This is stupid."

The room went quiet. The old mallet rolled a few inches on the table and stopped. Tutu did not move. She did not speak.

Malia heard her own breathing. It sounded loud.

"Tutu," she said, after a moment. "I am sorry. I did not mean —"

Tutu picked up the mallet. She looked at it.

"Is this stupid," she said.

"No. The mallet is not stupid. The mallet is —"

"Is the bark stupid."

"No —"

"Is the tree stupid."

"No —"

"Is my mother's mother's hand that carved this thing — is that stupid."

"Tutu —"

"Is my teaching stupid."

"No."

"Then what is stupid."

Malia opened her mouth and then closed it. She felt the tears coming and she did not want them. She bit the inside of her cheek.

"Me," she said. "I am stupid. Because I can't do it."

Tutu set the mallet down. Gently.

"You are not stupid," she said. "You are new. Those are not the same thing. If I said to you, 'Malia, tomorrow you must be a grown woman, or you are stupid,' you would laugh at me. Because you know you are not a grown woman yet. You are becoming one. Slowly. Every day. Same thing here. You are becoming a kapa-beater. Slowly. Every day. One does not get to rush the other."

Malia wiped her nose with her sleeve. Tutu did not comment on this, which Malia appreciated.

"Can I take a break?"

"Yes. Go swim. Come back in the afternoon. And Malia."

"Yes?"

"Pick up the mallet before you go."

Malia went to the table. She picked up the old mallet. She set it gently on its hook on the wall.

"Good," said Tutu. "Now go be eleven for two hours."

Malia went.

***

The beach at the bottom of Tutu's road was a small one, tucked between two black rock arms of lava. The sand there was a mix of black and tan, which Malia had always loved as a small child because it looked like pepper and salt. Her cousin Kai was already in the water when she got there, flipping himself in and out of the little waves like an otter. Cousin Pono was on the sand eating a bag of chips.

"Auē," called Pono, spotting her. "The mainland princess returns."

"I am not a mainland princess. Honolulu is not the mainland, idiot."

"Idiot yourself. Come sit."

She flopped down on the sand next to him. He offered her the bag. She took a handful.

"Tutu teaching you?" Pono asked.

"How did you know?"

"Everybody knows. My mom told me. She said, 'About time.'"

Malia picked at the sand. "I'm bad at it."

"Obviously."

"Thanks, Pono."

"What? Of course you're bad. It's week one. Even Tutu was bad in week one. Of like, sixty years ago. What do you want, a medal?"

Malia laughed. It was hard to be sad around Pono for long. He was built the wrong way for it.

Kai came out of the water, dripping. He was a year younger than Malia but as tall as she was and broader. His hair was cut short against his head. He had the face of somebody who lived outside.

"Hey cuz."

"Hey."

"You making cloth yet?"

"I made something that is bark-shaped. It is not cloth yet."

He grinned. "That's how it starts. My mom tried to learn, you know. Tutu's girl. My mom. She only learned a little. She said her hands were too fast. Tutu said slow down, slow down, and my mom said, but why — and that was that."

"Why did she give up?"

Kai shrugged. "Not give up. Just — not her thing. She paints. She paints shells and sells them to tourists. She's good. She uses some of Tutu's patterns."

Malia thought about this. She had never thought about the line of women who had had the chance and had let it go by.

"Kai. Would you do it? If Tutu asked you?"

Kai looked out at the sea for a moment. He was quiet in a different way than Pono. Quiet in a thinking way.

"I don't think she'll ask me, cuz. That's not on me. But also — I think she asked you because she knows. She has been watching you all these summers. She knows what you are."

"What am I?"

"Patient enough. Stubborn in the right way. Listener." He flicked sand off his shorts. "Don't mess it up."

"Gee, no pressure."

"Lots of pressure. Now come swim. You stink like bark water."

She did smell like bark water. She jumped into the sea with her clothes on because she had forgotten a suit, and the water was cold and good and it took all the ache out of her shoulders for a while. Pono tried to dunk her. She dunked him back. Kai laughed at both of them.

After, they lay on the warm sand drying, and Malia watched the clouds and thought about Tutu's mother's mother's hand on the mallet.

In the afternoon she went back to the workroom. The old mallet was on its hook. She took it down.

"Tutu."

"Mm?"

"I am ready."

Tutu looked at her.

"Okay," she said. "Let's go."

***

They worked through the rest of the afternoon on a new piece. Tutu had her soak a fresh strip of inner bark, showed her how long to let it sit, and then set it on the block. Malia took the old mallet down from the hook and held it in both hands for a moment before she began.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

This time something was different. Not in the bark — the bark was still difficult — but in her. She was not fighting it as much. She was trying to listen to it. She thought of the wauke forest, the leaves, the stream with the black rock. She thought of the tool in her hand, and the four women who had held it before her, and how little those women could have imagined her, and how much she owed them anyway.

*Tock.*

She worked until her arm burned. She stopped. She rubbed her shoulder. Tutu, working quietly across the room on a separate strip, did not look up.

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"How did your mother tell you about the patterns? Did she name them for you?"

"Some. Some I named for myself, later. Come. While you rest your arm, I will tell you a few."

Tutu brought out an old notebook, a cheap school notebook with a faded blue cover. Inside, each page had a pattern drawn carefully in pencil, and underneath each one a few words in her round, slow handwriting.

She turned the pages. “Within the garden of Thine immortality, before Thy countenance, let me abide for ever, O Thou Who art merciful unto me, and upon the seat of Thy glory stablish me, O Thou Who art my Possessor!”

“Hoping that his reign will rival the glorious past, he has sought to establish equity and righteousness and to foster education and the processes of civilization throughout this noble land, and to translate from potentiality into actuality whatever will insure its progress.”

"Yes. This is a pattern women put on cloth for babies. So that the baby would know, even asleep, that it was among teeth that loved it."

Malia turned a page. A pattern of small diamonds linked together.

"And this one?"

"That one is moena. The mat. Because everything is woven. Because every person is held on a mat of other people. Big enough to sit on. Sometimes big enough to lie down on, when we are sick."

"And the mat is?"

"Other people."

Malia nodded slowly.

"Tutu. Are there patterns I can invent? My own?"

"Yes. With time. When you know the old ones, you may add. Not before. First learn what has already been said. Then you may add your own sentence."

"Like learning words before you write a poem."

"Exactly like that. Who taught you that."

"Mr. Omori. My English teacher. He said you can't break rules until you know them."

"Your Mr. Omori is a wise man. Tell him hello from an old kapa-maker."

"I will."

She went back to the bark. The next hour was easier. Not because she was better. She was not better. It was because she was thinking of teeth that loved, and mats of people, and she was letting the thinking ride along on the top of the beating like a bird on the back of a cow.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

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On Saturday there was a gathering at Aunty Noe's house, on the other side of the village. It was somebody's birthday. Malia could never quite keep track of which cousin belonged to which cousin's cousin, but she knew that at these gatherings there would be food, and music, and many elders she did not always recognize, and at least one tiny baby who had been born since the last summer.

"Put on something nice," Tutu said. "Aunty Malia will be there."

Malia looked up from her book.

"Aunty Malia? Really?"

"She does not always come to these. She is ninety this year. But yes. She told Noe she would come. She asked about you."

"She asked about me?"

"She always asks. Every time. 'How is my namesake?' is what she says. 'Is she getting any taller?'"

"And what do you say?"

"I say, 'A little taller. And with a little more sense.' And she laughs."

"Tutu."

"It is what I say. You cannot argue with what I say to my own friend in my own mouth."

Malia could argue with this. She chose not to.

She put on the yellow dress with the small white flowers that her mother had packed for her. She brushed her hair and Tutu braided it. They drove across the village to Aunty Noe's in the blue truck.

Aunty Noe's house was bigger than Tutu's. It had a long porch and a yard full of plastic chairs and a grill going strong under a white tent. Kids were running around. Somebody had a ukulele. Uncle Sam was in the corner already singing, which meant he had been there for more than twenty minutes. The smell of kalua pork hung over everything.

"Tutu!" cried Aunty Noe, coming out to meet them. "And our Malia! Come in, come in, everybody is here, and Aunty Malia is in the chair under the banyan."

Malia looked toward the banyan tree. An old woman was sitting in a wooden chair there, small and straight, with white hair braided around her head like a crown. She wore a green muʻumuʻu and she had a walking stick across her lap. Children moved around her feet without climbing on her. She watched everything with bright eyes.

"Go say hello," Tutu said. "Do not bow. We are not Japanese. But lower your head a little. She is very old."

"I know."

"I know you know. I am telling you again."

Malia walked across the yard. Her stomach felt strange. She had met Aunty Malia before — every summer, from the time she could walk. But she had always been too small to really talk to her. The old woman had been a benevolent presence, a dry warm hand on her cheek, a smile.

"Aloha, Aunty Malia," she said, stopping in front of the wooden chair. She lowered her head.

Aunty Malia looked up. Her eyes were very dark and very clear. They did not seem like ninety-year-old eyes. They seemed like eyes that had been around longer than the rest of her.

"Ah. My namesake. Come closer. Let me see."

Malia came closer. Aunty Malia took her hand, carefully, and turned it palm up. She looked at the hand. She looked at the other hand. She looked at the blisters and the new pads of skin.

"So it is true," she said softly. "Kuʻulei has finally agreed to teach someone."

"Yes, Aunty."

"And that someone is you."

"Yes, Aunty."

Aunty Malia held the hand for a long moment. Her own hand was warm and dry and very light. Her fingers were thin as sticks.

And then the old woman's eyes filled with tears. Not loud tears. Tears that gathered at the bottoms of her eyes and did not fall.

"Aunty, are you okay?"

"I am very okay, keiki. I am more than okay."

"Why are you crying?"

Aunty Malia breathed in. She looked up at the leaves of the banyan. She looked back down at Malia.

"You are carrying a thread," she said, "that almost broke."

Malia did not know what to say.

"Do you know," Aunty Malia asked, "what happened when I was young? When the old ladies — the ones older than me — began to die? There were many crafts that almost died with them. Not because anybody wanted them to die. Because the world was changing too fast, and the young people were busy, and there was nobody to hold the thread. Kuʻulei's mother held it. Your Tutu held it. I held my own small thread — mele, the old songs. Other aunties held their things. We all held. And for a long time, there were no young hands under ours."

"I didn't know."

"How would you know. You were not born yet. Now you are born. Now your Tutu has put the thread into your hand. You do not know yet how heavy it is. That is okay. You will learn."

Malia felt that she might cry too.

"I'm not very good yet, Aunty."

"Nobody is good yet, keiki. That is not the thing."

"What is the thing?"

Aunty Malia smiled.

"The thing," she said, "is that you are trying. Now go eat. Go eat enough for both of us. I am too old to eat like I used to, so I need somebody young to do the eating for me."

"Yes, Aunty."

Malia bent and pressed her forehead very gently against the old woman's forehead. Aunty Malia smelled like plumeria and pepper. The honi was small and quick and as light as a leaf.

"Go," Aunty Malia whispered.

Malia went.

She found Tutu by the grill. She did not say anything. She just stood very close to her grandmother for a moment, pressing her shoulder against Tutu's arm.

"Eh," said Tutu softly, without looking down. "I know."

***

Later, when the sun had set and the kids had all been fed and the ukuleles had come out, Malia sat on the steps of the porch and watched the adults dance. They were not dancing in the hula way — nothing so formal. They were just swaying to Uncle Sam's strumming. Aunty Noe sang a little. Tutu sang a little. Aunty Malia, in her chair under the banyan, was tapping her walking stick softly on the ground in time with the music.

Pono sat down next to Malia with a plate piled too high. He offered her a piece of sweet potato.

"I heard Aunty Malia made you cry."

"She did not."

"Almost, though."

"Shut up, Pono."

"You know why she cries every time, right?"

"Why?"

"Because she remembers." He said it simply, like a fact. "She remembers everybody. The ones who are here and the ones who are not. When she looks at you she is probably seeing you and your great-grandmother and your Tutu all stacked up in one face. That's a lot to see. I would cry too."

Malia looked at him sideways. Pono was not usually the person who said things like this. He ate another piece of sweet potato.

"Sometimes you are secretly smart, Pono."

"Don't tell anybody."

"I won't."

They sat and watched the adults sway and the moths gather around the porch light. Somewhere, a baby laughed.

***

Late that night, after Tutu had gone to bed, Malia could not sleep. She got up and went out to the lanai. The moon was nearly full. The sea was silver again.

She sat on the wooden steps and she thought about all the things Aunty Malia had said with her hand and had not said with her mouth.

She thought about the word *thread.*

She pictured, in her mind, a long thread that went back and back into the dark, through the hands of women she did not know, some with names, some without. Women who had woven mats. Women who had pounded bark. Women who had sung to babies. Women who had died too young. Women who had lived too long and held on because there was something they had not yet taught.

She pictured the thread coming forward through all of them and ending in her own hand.

She pictured herself walking forward into her life with the thread. Into school, into high school, into college maybe, into work, into a marriage maybe, into a family maybe. And the thread kept getting longer.

The thought frightened her a little. She was only eleven. She could not yet imagine herself old enough to give something away. But the thought did not only frighten. It also settled her. It was like knowing where the next turn of the road would be, even if the road was long.

She went back to bed. She slept.

In the morning, she drew the pattern of waves on her paper, five minutes, before breakfast. Her hand was a little steadier than the night before.

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"The mask you are making," Tutu said on Monday morning, "is for a dance."

They were in the workroom. Malia had gotten better at the beating. Not good. Better. A strip of kapa that had taken her two days at the start of the week took her a day by the end of the week. Her hands moved with more rhythm. The old mallet in her hand felt less like a strange object and more like a part of her.

"Which dance?"

"The dance of Pele."

Malia looked up. Pele was the goddess of the volcano, the fire-woman of the Big Island. Every child in Hawaiʻi grew up with stories about her. She made the land by erupting. She was jealous and generous and old and young. Lava flows were her skirts. Volcanoes were her houses.

"A dance about Pele?"

"About her journey. When she came down from the heavens and looked for a home. She went to one island and did not stay. She went to another island and did not stay. She came here, to this island, and she dug herself a crater and she said, 'This will do.' That is why the Big Island is still growing. That is why there are still flows."

"And the dance tells all that?"

"The dance is the journey. It is danced at the cultural festival. The dancer is a young man — Pele is danced sometimes by men, sometimes by women, but in this dance, it is a young man — and he wears a mask that I have made, or that my mother made, or that my grandmother made. Now he will wear one that you made."

"Tutu."

"Yes?"

Malia was quiet for a minute. She was lining up her question carefully.

"Do you believe in Pele?"

Tutu did not answer right away. She put down the shell she had been polishing.

"That is a complicated question," she said.

"I don't mean — I don't mean to be rude, Tutu."

"It is not rude. It is a good question. You should ask it."

"Dad says," Malia said carefully, "he says he believes in one God. He goes to church. He is Filipino. And Mom —"

"Your mom is her own mixture."

"Yes."

"And you?"

Malia thought. "I don't know. I like the stories. But I don't — I don't know if I believe them the way Dad believes his things."

Tutu nodded slowly.

"So it's like — a word for a real thing."

"For me, yes. For some of the elders, more than a word. A relative. A person they know in the way you know a cousin. For me, it is somewhere in between. A word for the thing, and also a little more than that. Like the word Tutu. I am a real woman. But 'Tutu' is also a kind of feeling, yes? Not only a word."

"Yes."

Malia turned this over.

"Dad wouldn't mind me making the mask, would he?"

"Have you asked him?"

"No."

Malia nodded. She picked up her mallet.

"Tutu," she said after a while, "is it okay if my mask has — if I put a little thing in it that is mine? Like, a little piece that I choose?"

Tutu looked at her carefully.

"Tell me more."

"I mean — the patterns you teach me, I am going to follow them. I'm not going to mess with those. But I thought — maybe in one small place — I could do something that is about me."

"Tell me what you would put."

Malia thought.

"A small line, like a small root. Somewhere under the eye. Because I am learning about roots. And I want the mask to know."

Tutu was quiet a long time. Malia began to wonder if she had said something wrong.

Then Tutu smiled.

"Yes," she said. "A small root under the eye. Put it there. That is how the old masks grew. Each generation adding a small mark that was theirs. My mother's generation added a kind of mark we call the lightning. My generation added a tighter weave in the mouth — the mouth-grass we call it. You are a new generation. You may add a small root under the eye."

"Really?"

"Really. But only a small one. Masks are not for showing off."

"A small one, Tutu."

"Good girl."

***

That night Malia called her father on the phone. He was in a little cabin somewhere in Alaska, and the line was scratchy, but he sounded glad to hear her.

"Dad, can I ask you something weird?"

"Always."

"Is it okay with you that Tutu is teaching me to make a mask for a dance about Pele?"

There was a pause. Then Keoni laughed, a surprised, warm laugh.

"Keiki. Of course. Why wouldn't it be?"

"I don't know. Because of church. Because of — I don't know."

"Listen. Jesus does not need me to be afraid of anybody else's stories. He is bigger than that. I will sing hymns on Sunday and you will make a mask for a hula with your grandmother and both of those things are good."

"Really?"

"Really. I have always loved the Pele story. I used to go with your grandfather to the volcano and sit at the edge and look down and feel small. That is a holy feeling. A good feeling. I do not think God minds what we call it."

"Okay, Dad."

"Okay. And keiki."

"Yes?"

"Tell your Tutu I said thank you."

"For what?"

"She'll know."

***

In the days after that phone call, the work changed in Malia's head, though she could not have said exactly how.

She thought less about the mask as an object and more about it as a person. Or not quite a person. A traveler. She was making someone who would carry a story down a road. The mask would not know her — would have no memory of Malia — but it would carry her hands' thinking forward into nights and festivals she would not see.

Kuleana meant responsibility. It meant the thing that is yours to do because nobody else will do it the way you would. It was the word for a piece of land that belonged to your family and that your family had to look after. It was also the word for the invisible piece of land that was a craft, or a story, or a name.

She looked at the words. They felt large. She was not sure she was ready to have a kuleana. You had to be an adult, she thought, to have a kuleana. But Aunty Malia had cried over her hand, and Tutu had given her the old mallet, and so she supposed that a small kuleana had already been placed on her without asking.

She underlined the word twice and closed the notebook.

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The mistake happened on a Tuesday.

She had been working on a particular sheet of kapa for three days. It was the largest piece she had made. Tutu was going to show her how to cut the shape of the mask out of it. It was thick, and even, and, for Malia, beautiful.

She had gone to the workroom after breakfast. The door was open. Tutu was not there yet; she had stopped at the store to pick up some things. The room was still in the morning. The shutters were open. A breeze moved across the worktable.

Malia went to the hook where her kapa was drying. She reached up and took it down. She laid it on the table. She ran her hand over it.

She was going to tell Tutu, when Tutu came back, that she thought it was ready.

Then the wind came up.

It was a sudden gust, the kind that sometimes came through the workroom on summer days when the ocean breathed hard. It flung the shutter open and slammed it against the outside wall.

Malia jumped.

Her hand caught on the edge of the kapa.

The kapa was strong. Her hand was stronger in the wrong direction.

*Riiiip.*

It tore down the middle. A long, clean tear, from the top to almost the bottom.

"No —"

Malia grabbed at it. She held the two halves together. She stared at them stupidly, as if staring could put them back. The edges of the tear were shaggy and awful.

"No, no, no —"

She did not cry yet. That came later. At first she just stood there and tried to think of a way, any way, to undo the last five seconds. Her brain raced through bad ideas. Could she glue it? Could she hide it? Could she dye another one overnight? Could she —

"Malia? I'm back — I got —"

Tutu's voice came up the path from the house. Her footsteps.

Malia dropped her arms. The kapa hung in two pieces from her hands.

Tutu walked in. She looked at the kapa. She looked at Malia. She looked at the shutter, which was still banging a little in the breeze. She closed it.

For a moment nobody said anything.

Then Malia's mouth opened and she said, "I ruined it," and the tears came.

Tutu sat down on the stool. She patted the stool next to her. Malia sat.

"Tell me."

"I — I took it down — the wind came — I grabbed it, and —"

"Did you drop it on the floor?"

"No."

"Did you tear it on purpose?"

"No."

"Did you do something stupid, like use it to wipe your nose?"

"Tutu."

"I am asking."

"No."

"Then what happened is the wind happened. And the wind caught your hand. And the kapa tore because the kapa is still young. Mine would not have torn. That is because mine is old. When you have been making kapa for sixty years, your kapa will not tear in a gust of wind either. Yours is still learning to stay whole."

"But it was for the mask. It was the piece we were going to —"

"Yes."

"And now there is no time —"

"Yes, there is. There is lots of time."

"Tutu —"

"Malia. Listen to me. When my mother was teaching me, I ruined a piece that she had helped me with. It was going to be for a baby's blanket. I stepped on it by accident while it was drying on the ground. I cried for a whole night. I thought I would never be allowed to touch kapa again. My mother let me cry. Then she said, 'Kuʻulei. Tomorrow.' And tomorrow we started again."

"Tomorrow."

"Tomorrow. Everything important, tomorrow comes. Today is over. Today is the day it tore. That day is going to stay the day it tore, forever, no matter how sad we are. No amount of sad will put tomorrow's work into today."

Malia pressed her face into her hands. She was embarrassed about crying. She was not embarrassed in front of Tutu. She was embarrassed in front of herself.

Tutu put her small hand on the back of Malia's neck and rested it there. It was warm.

"Now," she said softly. "Tell me about the feeling."

"What feeling?"

"The feeling of having to start again."

"It feels — awful."

"Yes."

"It feels like — like I wasted three days."

"Yes."

"I feel like I'm not going to be fast enough for the festival now."

"Maybe. We will see. Maybe you will be. What else."

"I feel — I feel like everyone is going to be disappointed."

"Who is everyone?"

"You. Aunty Malia. Mom. Myself."

"Am I disappointed?"

"You — you don't look disappointed."

"I am not. Is Aunty Malia disappointed?"

"I don't know."

"She is not, because she does not know yet, and when she finds out she will say, 'Ah, a kapa tore. How sad. But the girl is still learning.' Is your mother disappointed?"

"No."

"Good. That leaves you."

Malia nodded miserably.

"Now you know," Tutu said, "how it feels to have to start again. That is a feeling you will have your whole life. In many things. Not only kapa. In friendships. In love, when you are older. In jobs. In being a parent. You will have this feeling and you will have to learn to do the next thing, which is —"

"Start again."

"Tomorrow."

"Tomorrow."

"Good. Now. Show me the two pieces."

Malia held them up.

Tutu looked at them carefully. She turned them this way and that.

"These are not useless, you know."

"They're not?"

"They are not big enough for a mask anymore. But they are big enough for other things. Small bags. A border on a different piece. A wrap for a small gift. Do not throw them out. Nothing is thrown out. Fold them and put them in the box on the shelf. Everything waits for its use."

Malia folded them. She put them in the box.

Malia nodded. She picked up the mallet.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

***

She worked late that afternoon. Tutu did not rush her. When the sun began to tilt toward the sea, Tutu said, "Enough. Tomorrow is tomorrow."

Malia hung the new, thicker piece to dry. She looked at it. It was smaller than the one that had torn. It did not matter. It was starting.

At dinner, she was quiet. She pushed rice around her plate.

"You are thinking loudly," Tutu said.

"I'm thinking about how I felt today."

"Tell me."

"I felt like I wanted to give up. For about a whole hour. Maybe more. When I saw it ripped, I thought — I thought, 'this is why I shouldn't have said yes. This is why I'm not the right person.' I really thought that, Tutu."

"And now?"

"Now I don't think it anymore. But that scared me. That I could think it. That my head could turn on me that fast."

Tutu put down her fork.

"Keiki. Your head will do that your whole life. That is its job. It watches for danger. When something goes wrong, it says, 'See? I told you. Back out. Go home. It is not safe.' It is trying to keep you safe. It is not trying to be mean."

"But it's wrong."

"Sometimes. Not always. The trick is to listen to it without obeying it right away. Say, 'Thank you, head. I hear you. Now sit down and let me work.'"

"'Thank you, head.'"

"Yes. Polite. But firm. Your head is a useful servant and a terrible boss."

Malia laughed. "My head is a terrible boss."

"All of ours. It is the trouble with being a person. You have this loud room inside your own skull. You have to learn to make coffee for all the people in the room, but not let any of them drive."

"Coffee for the people in the room."

"Write that one down, keiki. That is a good one."

Malia picked up her rice again. She ate. She thought about the head-people in her head having coffee together. It was a cheerful image.

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Mr. Aoki came up the road on a Thursday afternoon with a basket of eggs.

Malia saw him from the lanai. He was a small, neat man with thick white hair and glasses. He walked slowly, but with a kind of correct-ness, as if each step had been considered. He was eighty-six years old. He had been Tutu's neighbor for forty years.

"Aloha, Mr. Aoki!" she called, jumping up.

"Aloha, little Malia," he said. "You are tall."

"Everybody keeps saying that."

"That is because it is true. Is your Tutu home?"

"She is in the workroom. I was taking a break."

"Ah. Good. Perhaps I will sit with you for a moment, if you don't mind. My legs, today, they are saying, sit, sit."

"Of course. Come sit, Mr. Aoki. Can I get you water?"

"Yes, please, if it is not trouble."

She brought him water. He sat in the old cane chair on the lanai. He took a long sip.

"Thank you, keiki."

"Mr. Aoki, what brings you?"

"Eggs. My hens are having a loud month. I cannot eat them all. I told them, 'Please, ladies, slow down,' but they do not listen. Chickens are not good listeners. So I bring eggs to my friends."

Malia laughed. Mr. Aoki sipped his water.

"And," he said, "I hear you are learning kapa."

"Yes."

"Good. Good. It is good to hear." He looked out at the ocean for a moment. "Your Tutu has been a keeper of her craft for a long time. It is a beautiful thing that she has a student now. A very beautiful thing."

"How is your cabbage?" Malia asked, because she suddenly remembered that he grew vegetables.

"My cabbage is ambitious. It thinks it is going to take over the yard. I am having words with it."

"You are a farmer and a teacher, Mr. Aoki. How do you do both?"

"I was a teacher. Now I am a retired teacher who keeps chickens and grows cabbage and shouts at weeds. It is a small life. It is enough."

"What did you teach?"

"Mathematics. For forty-one years. At the high school."

"I would not have guessed mathematics."

"No? What would you have guessed?"

"Maybe — poetry?"

Mr. Aoki laughed. It was a small laugh, like a little cough of pleasure. "There is poetry in mathematics, my dear. The old Greeks knew that. But yes. I read poetry too. In two languages. I think that is what you are picking up on."

"Two languages?"

"English. And Japanese. My mother's language. My own first language, before English came. Though my Japanese has grown rusty."

Malia had known, in a general way, that Mr. Aoki was Japanese-American. She had never really thought about what that meant. He had always simply been there, her grandmother's neighbor, with his hens and his cabbage.

"Mr. Aoki."

"Yes."

"Were you born in Hawaiʻi?"

"Yes. On Oʻahu. Nineteen-thirty-nine."

"And you lived there your whole childhood?"

He looked at her carefully.

"Most of it," he said.

"I spent a part of my childhood on the mainland. In a camp. During the war. Have you heard of that?"

"The internment camps?"

"Yes. That is the word. My family was taken, along with many other families, because we were Japanese. I was three years old. I do not remember very much. I remember a horse. I remember that somebody gave me an orange."

"Mr. Aoki. I'm sorry."

"It was a long time ago, keiki. I was a small boy. It was much harder for my parents than for me. My father lost his business. He never fully rebuilt. But my mother — my mother was a calligrapher, did you know?"

"No."

"Yes. A calligrapher. She had been trained as a young woman in Tokyo, and she came to Hawaiʻi and she still practiced. In the camp, she did not have very much paper. But she did what she could. She wrote characters on scraps. On the back of a cardboard box, once. She wrote them anyway. After the war, when we came back to Hawaiʻi — Hawaiʻi was where we belonged, we had no place else — she started to teach me."

"Did you want to learn?"

"No."

He said it flatly and then he laughed.

"I did not want to learn. I was eight years old. I wanted to play baseball. I wanted to speak only English, because the other boys made fun of me when I spoke Japanese. I told my mother, 'I do not want to learn these marks. They are old. They are useless. Nobody will need them.' She did not argue with me. She said only, 'Every day, five characters. After that, you may go play baseball.'"

"Five characters."

"Five. Every day. Rain or shine. After my chores, before the dinner. I complained every day for six months. She did not bend. After that, I stopped complaining. Not because I liked it. Because complaining was a waste of my breath that I could have spent playing baseball. I drew my five characters, and then I ran out the door."

"Did you — did you come to like it?"

"Eventually. But here is the thing, keiki. Even when I did not like it — those characters were going into me. Into my bones. Into my hand. When I was thirteen years old, I picked up my father's brush on a whim and wrote a character, and I was shocked. It was correct. It was beautiful. I had not known I could do that. My hand had been learning in the dark. While I had been thinking about baseball, my hand had been learning."

Malia listened. She thought about the mallet.

"And now," Mr. Aoki said, "I am an old man who lives on a different island, and I cannot remember most of what my mother taught me. But when I hold a brush, five characters come to me. They are in my bones. I did not thank her when I was a boy. I thank her now."

"I'm sure she hears you."

"I hope so. I have a Bahá'í friend in Hilo, you know — a lady who drinks tea with me sometimes. She says there is only one ocean of truth, and every nation has drawn its own bucket from it. I like that image. I think of my mother's brush as one bucket. Your Tutu's kapa as another. The same ocean."

"That's a good thought."

"I thought you would like it." He smiled. "You have the kind of face that likes thoughts."

He drank the rest of his water.

"Go back to your Tutu. I will sit with her for a little. Tell her the eggs are on the porch."

Malia went. She found Tutu in the workroom, polishing shells. She told her Mr. Aoki was here. Tutu's face did a small, private smile.

"Ah," she said. "I will go say hello. You keep working. Do twenty more with the mallet. Without me watching."

Malia nodded. She picked up the old mallet.

As she beat the bark — *tock, tock, tock* — she thought about Mr. Aoki's mother, on the back of a cardboard box in a desert, painting characters. She thought about the five characters going into Mr. Aoki's bones while he dreamed about baseball. She thought about her own hands. She wondered what, right now, was going into her bones while she was not paying attention.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

***

Mr. Aoki stayed with Tutu for almost two hours. Malia worked through most of it. She heard them talking, sometimes, through the open door. Not the words. Only the two voices weaving together. Tutu's voice was lower, Mr. Aoki's a little higher. They laughed once at something she did not catch. Two old friends, sitting on the lanai with eggs and water.

When Mr. Aoki finally left, Malia was hanging a new strip to dry. Tutu came back into the workroom. She sat down on her stool.

"He is a good man," Tutu said, to no one in particular.

"He is," Malia said.

"Do you know how long he has lived next door to me?"

"Forty years?"

"Forty-two. Since before your mother was born. He came to the island after he retired. He was looking for a small life. A garden. A coop. A neighbor who would drink coffee with him and not ask too many questions. That was your grandfather, mostly. Papa Nālu. They drank coffee on our porch twice a week until Papa died. Mr. Aoki used to bring him a newspaper. Your grandfather used to bring Mr. Aoki a piece of coconut bread."

"Did he — did Mr. Aoki ever talk about the camp? Before?"

"A little. Not often. He told Papa more than he told me. Men sometimes tell other men things they do not tell women, just as women tell other women things they do not tell men. It is not fair, but it is how people are."

"Tutu."

"Mm."

"He said he has a friend in Hilo who is Bahá'í. What is that?"

Tutu considered this.

"It is a faith, keiki. A religion. It started in Persia — what you would call Iran — more than a hundred years ago. The people of that faith believe that all religions come from the same source. That God sends teachers, one after another, to different times and places. That all people are one family. There are Bahá'ís in almost every country. There are a few on this island. I know a couple of them. Good people."

"So — so they think the Buddhists and the Christians and the Muslims are all right?"

"They would say all of the prophets are lights from the same sun. A little different, because people at different times needed different teachings. But one light, in the end."

"That is kind of like what you said about Pele."

Tutu looked at her sharply. Then she smiled.

"Is it."

"You said the word is your mother's word for the fire. You said the story is a way of remembering the fire. You said there could be many words."

"Huh."

"Huh?"

"I had not thought of it that way, keiki. But yes. You are correct. Mr. Aoki's Bahá'í friend would probably agree with me about Pele, in her way. And I would probably agree with her about her prophets, in mine."

Malia thought about this for a while as she worked.

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"It seems like everybody is saying the same thing from different directions."

"Some people are. Some people are not. You do not get to decide for other people what they are saying. But you get to listen."

"I like the idea that everybody is saying it from a different direction."

"Good. I like it too. It is a comfortable idea. Whether it is true, you tell me in sixty years."

"Everybody tells me I'll know in sixty years."

"Everybody who is wise tells you that, yes."

Malia laughed. She lifted the mallet. *Tock. Tock.*

***

That night, after dinner, Tutu asked Malia to sit with her on the lanai. She had a small, worn book in her hand. It was bound in cracked brown leather, and the pages were very thin.

"This," she said, "was my mother's notebook. Not her pattern notebook — the other one. The book she wrote in, at night, for about the last twenty years of her life. Small notes. A sentence or two. Things she did not want to lose."

"May I look?"

"A little. Some pages are private, even now. I will turn."

Tutu turned to a page near the beginning. She pointed at a short note in faded ink.

"'Today I taught Kuʻulei to hold the mallet the right way. She is seven. Her hand is the right size at last.' That is about me."

"Seven?"

"Yes. Younger than you. But she did not teach me quickly. Only the grip, at seven. The first real beating, not until I was nine. She moved slowly. She had her own reasons."

Tutu turned more pages. She stopped at another.

"'Leilani from two villages over has passed. Her kapa goes now to her sister. Her sister is not a strong maker. I will try to help, if they let me.'"

"Did they let her?"

"Yes. For many years. My mother traveled to the next village once a month and she sat with that sister. She did not tell her that she was a stronger maker. She only worked quietly alongside. Eventually the sister learned. Some things are taught by sitting beside, not by saying."

Tutu turned another page.

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"Your mother read that sentence."

"Yes. In the fifties, maybe. I do not know exactly when. She was a curious woman."

"And it stayed with her."

"Many things stayed with her. Many sentences. Many patterns. Many stories. A life is a large pocket. It holds a lot. By the end, it is heavy, but in a good way."

Tutu closed the book. She held it on her lap.

"Keiki. I show you this because I want you to understand something. I am not teaching you kapa only so that kapa will keep going. I am teaching you kapa because kapa is a way of being a person who keeps things. Any good thing you find, in any culture, in any faith — keep it. Hold it in your hands. Pass it on. The point is not that the kapa survives. The point is that you become someone who survives a little more. And then, because you survived, a piece of kapa also survived."

Malia nodded slowly.

"Tutu, did you — did you ever think that you were not going to teach anyone?"

Tutu was quiet for a while.

"There were years," she said, "when I thought that, yes. The years after Pua died. The year your grandfather died. The years when the village felt small and old and I wondered who was coming to fill it. I thought, maybe the kapa is done. Maybe I will be the last. Maybe the thread will break here in my hands."

"Tutu."

Malia could not speak.

"I did not tell you this because I did not want to put it on you. It was not your job to be the one who kept the thread. You did not owe that to me. You still do not owe it to me. If you had said no, I would not have been angry. I would have been quiet for a few months, maybe. I would not have been angry."

"But I said yes."

"You said yes. And then you did the work. And that is the thing that is the most important. Not that you said yes. That you kept saying yes, every morning, even when your hand hurt."

Malia wiped her face with her sleeve.

"Tutu. I love you."

"I know, keiki. I know. I love you too."

They sat in the dark for a long time. The little brown leather book sat on Tutu's lap. Inside it, ink from fifty years ago waited patiently for the next person to turn the page.

***

The last thing Tutu taught Malia that summer was a small prayer her own mother had taught her. It was not a religious prayer, Tutu said. It was a prayer for the hands.

"When you start work in the morning," Tutu said, "before the first hit of the mallet, say this. Quietly. To yourself. You do not have to believe in any god to say it. You only have to believe in hands."

She said the words. They were in Hawaiian and then in English, because Tutu knew that Malia's Hawaiian was still small.

The prayer was short. It asked that the hands be patient. It asked that the hands be honest. It asked that the hands not hurry. It asked that the hands remember the hands that came before them.

"That is a good prayer, Tutu."

"It is a small prayer. A small prayer can be a very good prayer. Big prayers are sometimes loud. Small prayers are sometimes exactly the right size."

"I will say it every morning."

"Good. And on the mornings you forget, do not be angry with yourself. Say it the next morning twice."

"Okay."

They went inside. Tutu locked the door. Pōpoki jumped onto the sofa. The stars outside pressed against the window.

Malia went to bed. In her head, she was already saying the prayer, quietly, though it was not morning.

*Patient. Honest. Not hurrying. Remembering the hands that came before.*

She fell asleep with the words in her mouth.

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It happened in the middle of the fourth week.

Malia was not looking for it. She was just working, as she had been working every morning for weeks. The mallet in her hand. The bark on the block. Her back a little bent. Her eyes on nothing.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

And then, all at once, without warning, her arm and the mallet and the bark were one thing. It was not that she thought about how to hit correctly. She did not think at all. She simply hit, and the hit was right, and the next hit was right, and the next. Her arm swung from her shoulder as if her shoulder were an oar-lock and her arm were an oar and the bark were the sea.

The rhythm was no longer something she was imposing. It was something she was inside of.

*Tock. Tock. Tock. Tock. Tock.*

She noticed it. And as soon as she noticed it, she almost lost it — she almost tightened up, almost stopped breathing — and then she let it come back. She told herself not to hold it too tight. She let her body do what it was already doing.

*Tock. Tock. Tock.*

The bark was flattening evenly. The fibers were opening like a cloth being rolled out. She could see where it wanted to go next. She moved the strip a quarter inch. *Tock.* Right where she had aimed.

She kept working.

After a while — she did not know how long — she became aware that Tutu was in the doorway of the workroom. She did not know how long Tutu had been there.

Malia did not stop. She did not look up.

She finished the strip. She set the mallet down. She lifted the bark off the block. She turned and hung it to dry.

Only then did she look at Tutu.

Tutu's face was perfectly still. Her eyes were bright.

She did not say anything.

Malia did not say anything either.

Tutu walked in. She went to the worktable and picked up a small piece of dried kapa. She rolled it up between her fingers. She put it down. She looked out the window.

"Lunch," she said. "Come."

They walked back to the house in silence. They ate lunch in silence. It was not an unhappy silence. It was a full one.

"Yellow?"

"Yellow first. Then brown. Tomorrow, black."

"Okay."

Tutu looked at her over her glasses.

"Malia."

"Yes."

"You did a good morning."

"I know."

Tutu nodded once. She did not smile. She went to rinse the dishes.

But Malia saw, as Tutu turned, that her grandmother's mouth was doing the smallest, quietest thing with its corner — the thing it had done in the truck on the first day. And Malia pressed her own lips together so as not to grin too hard, because she understood now that grinning too hard was not the way a kapa-maker received a compliment.

Kapa-makers received compliments the way the bark received the mallet. They took them in without fuss. They kept working.

That afternoon, she learned to dye.

***

That night, she called her mother.

"Mom."

"Hi, honey. How was today?"

"Mom. I did it. I — something happened with my hand. I don't know how to describe it. It just — it worked."

There was a pause.

Then her mother laughed. It was a warm, quiet, proud laugh.

"Oh, keiki."

"Mom, is that what happens?"

"That is what happens. With anything important. You just keep doing the thing, and then one day the thing starts doing itself."

"Mom, I am going to cry."

"Go ahead. I will cry too. Over the phone. Nobody has to know."

So they cried a little, together, on the phone, about a kind of hitting that finally became a kind of swimming.

"Tutu knows?" her mother asked, after.

"She knows."

"What did she say?"

"Nothing."

"Good," said her mother. "That's the right thing."

***

In the days that followed, Malia kept working.

The new rhythm did not come back every morning. Some days her arm was stiff. Some days the bark was wetter or drier than she expected. Some days she felt like a beginner again, and she had to remind herself, out loud, in a whisper, *you did it once. You can do it again.*

But the new rhythm returned a little more easily each time. Her hand began to learn, over and over, where it had been.

Tutu had her do different things. Some days, only beating. Some days, dyeing. One morning, they went to the beach at dawn and Tutu showed her how to find the kind of shell that gave the best white pigment. Malia found three. Tutu said two were good and one was not. Malia hid the not-good one in her pocket anyway. She kept it on her windowsill later. She liked the shape of its failure.

One afternoon, they walked up the road to the little cemetery that sat on a hill above the village. It was fenced with old wooden posts. Tutu had brought a small bunch of plumeria. They walked between the stones.

"My mother is here," she said. "And my father. And Papa Nālu. And my brother Henry, who died when he was nineteen in a fishing accident. And over there is a row of Aokis — Mr. Aoki's family. And over there, under the frangipani, is where my friend Pua is. She died two winters ago. She was my best friend for sixty years. She used to tease me that I was too serious."

"Were you too serious?"

"Yes. I still am. That is what friends are for, keiki. To tell you the truth about yourself and still love you."

Malia helped Tutu lay plumeria on three of the graves. They stood quietly. A bird called from somewhere up the hill.

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"Does it — is it sad, coming here?"

Tutu thought about it.

Malia thought about this. She thought about Papa Nālu's pipe-tobacco smell in the truck.

"I think I understand."

"Someday you will understand all of it. That is part of growing older. The gift of it. Not the only gift."

They walked back down the hill to the blue truck. Malia carried the empty plumeria basket. The wind was in the mango trees.

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The mask began as a flat oval of kapa.

Tutu laid the oval on the worktable. It was the second one Malia had made — the one she had started after the tear. It was heavy and strong, dyed a pale brown, with a slightly darker border. Tutu ran her hand over it. She nodded once.

"Good. This is a good piece. Now we shape."

She took a small bowl of water and a little piece of sponge. She wet the edges of the oval. Then, with her fingers, she began to press and pull the damp edges into a gentle curve.

"Not a mask that fits the face exactly," she said. "A mask that sits just out from the face. Like a little moon. The dancer looks through the eyes."

"Why not against the face?"

"Because masks are not faces. If they were, they would be copies. The mask is its own thing. It knows the face is behind it. It does not pretend to be the face."

She shaped. Malia watched. After a while, she handed Malia the sponge.

"Try this side."

Malia's hands were careful. She was not sure where her pressing should be harder, where softer. She worked by feel. The kapa accepted the shaping. It was like gently bending a leaf.

"Good. Not too much. The kapa remembers the shape you give it. If you push too hard, it cannot come back."

"Like a person."

Tutu looked at her.

"Yes. Like a person. Some shapes a person cannot come back from. So you are gentle."

They shaped for two days.

On the third day, Tutu took out the dye pots.

Pele's mask was red and black. The red came from a clay found at the edge of old flows, mixed with oil. The black came from burned kukui nut, mixed with a little water. There was also a small amount of white — from the inside of certain shells — for the eyes and for the lines of lava running down the cheeks.

"You will not paint the mask by yourself," Tutu said. "Not this time. I will paint, and you will help. Next time, you will paint and I will help. Third time, you will paint alone and I will watch."

"Third time?"

"Yes."

"There is going to be a third time?"

"There is going to be a many times, if you want. Did I not say this summer is the beginning."

Malia's face went warm.

"I want there to be a many times," she said.

"Good."

Tutu painted. Her hand was impossibly steady. The red went on in thin, confident lines. The black went on in bolder ones. The white was the last and smallest. The whole time she worked, she hummed softly. It was not a tune Malia recognized. When Malia asked, Tutu said, "My mother's work-song. She hummed it. My grandmother hummed it. I do not know the words. Maybe there were never words."

Malia helped. She held the mask steady. She fetched water. She mixed the red. At one point, she ran to the house to get a smaller brush.

On the second afternoon of painting, Tutu stopped and put the brush down.

"Now," she said. "Your part."

"What?"

"Your root. Under the eye. We agreed."

Malia's stomach flipped.

"Now?"

"Now."

"Tutu, what if I mess it up?"

"Then the mask has a mark. It is not the worst thing. But you will not mess it up. You have watched me for two days. You have the mallet hand. You have the dye sense. Here — use this brush. One line. Small. Under the left eye. A root going down. Three short branches."

She handed Malia the smallest brush.

Malia's hand shook.

"Breathe," said Tutu. "Breathe in. Breathe out. Then draw."

Malia breathed. She breathed again. She dipped the brush.

She drew.

The root went down from under the eye, a curve like a small tree's beginning. Three short branches came off it — one to the side, one down, one across. They were small. They were hers.

She lifted the brush.

Tutu leaned over. She looked. Her face was very still.

"Yes," she said. "That is good."

"It is a tiny thing."

"Tiny things are the things that last. Look — my grandmother's mouth-grass is tiny. My mother's lightning is a thin line. These are the marks that tell you which mask is from which hand. Not the big features. The small ones."

Malia let out a breath she had not known she was holding.

"Done?"

"Done with the painting. Tomorrow we add the feathers."

"Feathers?"

"Small ones. Along the top. To be the fire."

"Pele's fire."

"Yes."

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"It's beautiful."

Tutu tilted her head to one side.

"It is," she said. "It is beautiful. That is a true thing."

***

That night, Malia sat on the lanai and looked at her phone.

She had barely used it for weeks.

There were messages. From Keilani. From Hana. From Brooke. From Lila. Memes she no longer recognized. In-jokes she had missed. A whole conversation about something called "the Malcolm situation" that appeared to have been resolved without her.

Malia scrolled. She felt a small sting of being left out. Not a big sting. A little one. Like a mosquito bite.

She hit send.

She put the phone down, screen-down, on the wooden step next to her, and looked out at the ocean.

The moon was up. A silver path ran over the water all the way to the horizon.

Malia read Lila's message twice. She felt a small warm thing happen in her chest. Lila was her quietest friend. Lila did not often say things like this. When she did, they were true.

She turned the phone face-down again.

A breeze came up off the ocean. A gecko chirped from under the porch. Somewhere, far off, a dog barked twice and stopped.

Malia sat a long time in the moonlight.

She thought about the first night of the summer, when she had come out here and not known what she was coming out to. It felt like a long time ago. The girl who had sat here that first night had been someone who carried a phone in her hand. The girl sitting here now carried, without knowing it, a mallet, a bundle of bark, a small plain prayer in the back of her mouth, a pattern of waves in her hand, and the knowledge that the web was real.

She did not feel proud of herself, exactly. The word did not fit. It was a smaller, steadier thing than pride. It was the feeling of having become a little more like her own grandmother in some ways that could not be named.

She laughed quietly at her own thought. It sounded like something Tutu would say. Maybe she was saying it because Tutu had already said it, in some form, a thousand times this summer without ever saying it out loud. Tutu was now inside her. A small Tutu, no bigger than a thumb, sitting somewhere in her chest, saying helpful things.

Then she went inside and drew her five minutes of patterns and went to bed.

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In the last week before the festival, the whole village seemed to shift gears.

Everywhere Malia looked, people were preparing. Aunty Noe and three other women sat on the big porch at the community center, weaving leis. Uncle Sam and two younger men were building a low wooden platform under the banyan tree on the festival grounds. Pono's mother was baking enough rolls to fill a bathtub. Somebody had borrowed a power washer and was cleaning the steps of the old pavilion.

"Come with me today," Tutu said at breakfast. "We have many hands to make."

"What about the mask?"

"The mask is done. It only needs to rest and wait. Today we help the others."

Malia went. All morning, she carried folding chairs from a storage shed to the festival grounds. After lunch, she learned to fold ti leaves into small triangles for decorations. In the evening, she helped Pono's mother peel taro. Pono himself was on kalua pork duty and kept sneaking over to show her how bossy his mother had become.

"She has festival fever," he whispered. "It happens every year. She turns into a general. General Mom."

"I can hear you, Pono," his mother called from the kitchen.

"Yes, General," said Pono.

Malia laughed until her face hurt.

Later she walked past a small table where three of the older aunties were weaving leis of ti leaf and string. They called her over. She sat. They showed her how to start a lei with a simple knot and then how to keep it going with a kind of twist-and-pull, twist-and-pull.

"Slow hands," one of the aunties said, watching her.

"Tutu has been teaching me."

"Ah. We can tell."

"You can?"

"Girls with slow hands are not born. They are made. Your grandmother made you."

Malia did not know what to say. She kept twisting. The lei grew.

"Is your grandmother here?" asked another aunty.

"She is at the food tent."

"Of course. She is always where the food is."

"Aunty, I heard that."

Tutu's voice was behind them. She had come up quietly, the way she sometimes did. The aunties laughed.

"You were meant to hear it, Kuʻulei."

Tutu put her hand on Malia's shoulder. "Eh, keiki. You are making a lei now too."

"They showed me."

"Good. One more thing in the hands." She bent and kissed the top of Malia's head. Then she moved on, to where Aunty Noe was shouting about something that had to do with tablecloths.

Malia finished the lei. It was uneven, but it held. She hung it on a hook. Someone, she thought, would wear it tomorrow. She would not know who. That felt right.

On the second day of this helping, Malia was laying out plates on the long tables when Tutu came up behind her.

"Look at them," Tutu said quietly.

"Who?"

"Everyone."

Malia looked.

The festival grounds were filled with people. Old women were weaving. Children were running errands. Uncle Sam was standing on a ladder fixing a light. Kai was carrying a cooler. Aunty Noe was yelling in three directions at once. Far off, she could see Mr. Aoki, walking carefully with a tray of drinks toward the elders' tent.

"This is the village," Tutu said. "This is what a festival is. Not the show. The show is the last hour. This —" she waved her hand at the tables, the cooler, the ladders, the ti leaves — "this is the festival. This is ninety percent of it."

"I never saw it before."

"Before, you always came only to the show. You were a child. Now you see it. That is new. That is the difference between watching and being inside."

Malia looked around again.

The community was a web. She had known that. But she had known it in the way you know a word — you could say it, you could define it, but you had not felt it. Now she felt it. The leis had been made by hands and those hands had been held by other hands. The platform had been hammered by uncles who had been children on other platforms built by other uncles. The rolls had come from a recipe from someone's great-grandmother. The ti leaves grew in the yards of people who had planted them as gifts to future festivals.

She looked down at her hands. They were the hands of a girl from Honolulu, who went to a school with lockers, who liked ramen and the bookstore near Ala Moana and the big chair by her window where she read after dinner. They were also the hands of a girl whose grandmother's mother had planted wauke trees for her. Both sets of hands belonged to the same girl. They had been the same girl the whole time.

Aunty Noe called for more ti leaves. Malia stopped thinking and started fetching.

Tutu had moved off. She was speaking with Aunty Noe. They were laughing about something. Aunty Noe reached up and tucked a stray hair behind Tutu's ear.

Malia went back to laying out plates.

***

Two nights before the festival, Tutu came into Malia's bedroom with a small box in her hand.

"Come out. I want to show you something."

Malia followed her out to the lanai. The sky was huge with stars. The sea was loud.

Tutu sat down on the steps. She patted the spot next to her. Malia sat.

"I have something to give you. Not yet. But I wanted to show you."

She opened the box.

Inside was a small mallet. Smaller than the old one. Plainer. No carving. But well-made. Smooth handle. Tidy grooves.

"A new one?"

"I made it this spring. Before I decided to ask you. I was going to give it to you only if you said yes and only if the summer went well. I thought, if the summer goes well, I will have made her a mallet. If the summer does not go well, I will have made myself a second working beater."

Malia touched the handle.

"For me?"

"For you. Not yet. You will not take it home at the end of the summer — wait, let me say that differently — you will take it home, but the old one, the one you have been using, that one stays on the island. It is too old to travel. It stays in the workroom for you to use when you come back. This one —" she patted the small plain one — "this one comes with you to Honolulu. So that your hand does not forget. So that when you have a free half-hour in your room, you can take a piece of scrap kapa I will give you — yes, I have been saving scraps, do not worry — and you can keep the hand alive."

"Tutu."

"Do not cry, keiki."

"I'm not."

"Your face says otherwise."

"My face is a liar."

"Your face tells the truth."

They sat in the dark, looking at the small plain mallet in the small plain box.

"Tutu. Thank you."

"Not yet. At the end of the summer. But I wanted you to know now. So that in the last week, you can be excited."

"I am excited."

"Good."

They sat in silence for a long time. Somewhere, down the road, someone was playing a ukulele.

"Tutu."

"Mm."

"I don't want to go home."

Tutu was quiet for a while.

"Some part of home," she said, "is in you now. You are taking it with you. Honolulu is also home. Your bed there. Your school. Your parents. Your friends. That is home too. The trick in life is not to pick one home. The trick is to carry all the homes inside you at once."

"Is that hard?"

"It is the only kind of hard that is worth doing."

They sat for a while longer. Pōpoki came out and sat beside them. He did not ask for anything. He only sat. Cats, Malia thought, understood this kind of evening better than people.

"Tutu."

"Mm."

"Can I keep helping — next year, and the year after? Not just the mask, but — everything? The gathering. The dyes. The patterns. All of it."

"That was the plan, keiki. You did not know the whole plan. I did not tell you the whole plan, because a whole plan is too heavy for a beginning."

"There is more?"

"There is always more. There is a kind of very fine kapa we have not touched. There is the printing with the bamboo tool — the ʻohe kāpala — that I have not shown you. There are dyes from plants I have not introduced you to yet. There are old chants that go with the beating. Some of them I know. Some I only half-know. I am learning too, always. Any good teacher is learning too."

"So — every summer?"

"Every summer you can come. And in between. Whenever you can. And when you are older, maybe you will come and stay a longer time. Not only for summers."

Malia put her head on Tutu's shoulder.

"I am ready for that."

"Good. Now go sleep. The festival is in a day and a half. You need your hands strong."

"Okay, Tutu."

"Okay, my kolohe girl."

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The morning of the festival was loud with birds and with people.

Malia woke early. She lay in her bed for a moment listening to the village come awake. A truck went by on the road. Aunty Noe was already calling something across her yard. A rooster was having a disagreement with another rooster.

She got up. She dressed in the clothes she had chosen the night before — a blue muʻumuʻu that had been her mother's as a girl, adjusted to fit her, and a single pikake lei Tutu had woven for her. Her hair was braided. In her pocket, she had a small flat stone she had picked up at the beach, for luck.

She went to the kitchen. Tutu was already there, in her festival dress, which was long and dark green with a pattern of small white shells along the hem.

"Eat," said Tutu. "Not too much. Not too little. Medium."

"Medium."

"The medium eating is the festival eating. If you eat too much, you fall asleep by noon. If you eat too little, you faint by three o'clock. Medium."

Malia ate a medium breakfast.

At eight o'clock, they drove to the festival grounds. The parking area was already full of trucks. People were everywhere. Old men were tuning ukuleles. Old women were arranging tables. Children were running between the legs of adults. Kai saw her from across the grass and waved. Pono came running up, already sweating.

"Big day, cuz."

"Big day."

"You nervous?"

"Not really."

"Really?"

"Really. A little."

"You should be a lot nervous. I would be a lot nervous. I am a lot nervous for you. Why are you not a lot nervous?"

"Because I made what I made. It is already done. Now it just has to be worn."

Pono stared at her for a second.

"That is very mature of you, Malia. I hate it."

She laughed.

The dances were scheduled for the afternoon. The morning was for food and greetings and the old men's games and the children's songs. Malia did not stay with Tutu every minute; there were too many people, and Tutu was being pulled one way and another by friends and cousins. Malia wandered. She helped carry trays. She ate a piece of kalua pork even though she had said she would not. She danced a small, silly, three-step dance with Kai that was not part of the program.

At noon, she went to the mask tent.

The mask was there, under a cloth, on a little wooden stand. Tutu had brought it over in the morning. Two other masks from other makers were on other stands. An old man sat on a stool in the corner, keeping watch, drinking coffee.

Malia lifted the cloth off her mask.

It looked back at her.

She had seen it a hundred times now. But seeing it here, in this tent, in this light, on this day, was different. It was as if the mask had become its own creature in the night. The small root under the left eye was clear in the light — a quiet little mark, humble, three short branches.

"Eh, keiki," said the old man in the corner. "That is yours?"

"Yes, Uncle."

"Ah. Your first?"

"First."

"A good face. A proud face. The root is new."

"Yes, Uncle."

"Your own addition?"

"Yes, Uncle. Tutu agreed."

The old man nodded once.

"Good," he said. "Each one adds. Each one takes nothing away." He went back to his coffee.

Malia stood for a long moment in front of the mask. Then she said, quietly, "Good luck, little moon."

She covered it again with the cloth and went out into the afternoon.

***

The dances began at two.

The wooden platform under the banyan tree was low and clean. Chairs circled it. Behind the chairs, people stood, and behind them, more people. Tutu sat in the front row, in the space reserved for elders. She had insisted that Malia sit with her.

"You are in the makers' row today," Tutu had said. "A girl who has made a mask is a member of the makers' row. Sit."

So Malia sat.

The first dance was a children's dance. A line of small girls came onto the platform in green paʻū skirts and pink shirts, and they did a simple hula about a flower. One of the girls was probably five and forgot every third step. Her older sister, next to her, nudged her with an elbow at the right moments. The crowd laughed warmly.

The second dance was older girls — a hula about water. It was more complicated. The girls' hands moved like streams.

The third dance was the men's dance — six young men in malo and leaf anklets doing a chant-dance with sticks. They stamped and shouted. The banyan leaves shook a little. The crowd was quiet with attention.

"And now, the dance of Pele. Pele will be danced by Pono Kahananui. The mask was made by Malia Kahananui, apprenticed to her grandmother, Kuʻulei Kahananui."

Malia felt her ears go hot.

"Eh, eh," whispered Tutu next to her, patting her knee. "They said your name. That is how it is done."

"I didn't know they were going to —"

"The maker's name is always said. Quietly, but it is said. So the mask has a mother as well as a wearer."

Pono came onto the platform.

Malia had expected him to do his usual jokes, his crooked walk, his silly face. She was wrong. Pono walked onto the platform and he was not Pono. He was a young man doing a serious thing. His chin was up. His shoulders were set. He carried the mask as if he were carrying a sleeping child.

She realized something then that she had not known before. Pono had been practicing too. All summer. Probably in the mornings she had not seen him. Probably in the evenings, while she had been beating bark. He had been learning the steps, the exact count, the breath. He had been getting his body ready to carry something she had been getting her hands ready to make.

The two of them, without ever saying so, had been working on the same thing from two different rooms. That was a new thing to know about the world. It made her feel larger, in the way that Tutu had meant, the first time Tutu had used the word larger.

He was dressed in a kīkepa of dark cloth. His arms and legs were bare. A single band of leaves circled his head. He was holding the mask at his side, face forward, pointing down.

When he reached the center of the platform, he lifted the mask and put it over his face.

Malia's heart stopped and then started again, very loudly.

Pono — goofy, teasing, kalua-pork-sneaking Pono — was gone. The figure on the platform was not Pono. It was a creature of fire and bark and root. The mask, lit by the afternoon sun, glowed red. The black lines down its cheeks looked like lava. The small root under the left eye was almost invisible from where she sat. But she knew it was there, and knowing was enough.

The drums began.

Pono began to dance.

Malia did not know the choreography. But she knew, as everyone knew, that this was the journey. The drummer beat a steady traveling rhythm, and Pono's feet came down on the platform like stones dropping into water. He reached north — away — no. He reached east — further — no. He reached south. He reached west. He stopped. He bent down. He dug.

He was digging a crater.

Malia felt tears on her face before she knew she was crying. Next to her, Tutu was quiet. Quiet as a stone. Eyes shining.

The dance ended. The last beat of the drum came down. Pono froze with both hands reaching up out of the crater, the mask's painted face turned to the sky.

For a long moment, nobody moved.

Then the crowd began to applaud. Not a big loud applause. A deep, steady one. The kind adults use when they mean it.

Pono lifted the mask off his face carefully. He brought it down in both hands. He bowed.

He looked straight at Malia.

Malia laughed through the tears.

***

Afterward, there was more food, and more music, and the sun went down and somebody lit torches and children ran through the dark with sparklers. Aunty Malia, under her banyan tree with her chair, held Malia's hand for a long time without speaking.

Late in the evening, Mr. Aoki came by with a small cup of shave ice for her. Mango flavor. Her favorite.

"Congratulations, little keeper of the thread," he said.

"Thank you, Mr. Aoki."

He tapped the mallet at her side — she had been wearing a small woven bag with the old mallet in it, at Tutu's suggestion, as a maker's sign — and he nodded once.

"Your hand," he said, "is in your bones now."

"Yes, Mr. Aoki."

"Good. Very good."

He shuffled off. Somewhere, a ukulele began a slow song.

Malia found Tutu sitting on the edge of the platform, resting her feet.

"Tired?"

"Tired and happy. Come. Sit."

Malia sat.

They watched the torches for a while.

"Tutu."

"Mm."

"He became the dance."

"Yes."

"The mask — it wasn't me anymore, once he was in it."

"That is how it is supposed to be. The mask has three lives. The life of the maker, which is the quiet one. The life of the dancer, which is the public one. The life of the story, which is the old one. Tonight, all three were alive. That is a good mask."

"A good mask."

"A good mask."

They sat in the torchlight for a long time.

Later, walking to the truck with Tutu leaning lightly on her arm, Malia passed Aunty Malia still in her chair under the banyan. The old woman looked up and reached out a hand. Malia bent down.

"My namesake," Aunty Malia said softly.

"Aunty."

"I watched the mask dance tonight."

"You did."

"Your great-grandmother Leilani made the mask that was danced the summer I was your age. Did you know that?"

"I did not know that."

"She did. The dancer then was a boy named Kamaka. He is long gone. The mask is long gone. But I still see it. Some part of it. When I close my eyes." She smiled. "Now when I close my eyes, I will see your mask, too. A new face in the old row. A small root under the eye."

Malia's throat was tight. She pressed her forehead gently against Aunty Malia's.

"Thank you, Aunty."

"No. Thank you. The thread, keiki. The thread."

"The thread."

She let Malia go. Tutu squeezed her granddaughter's arm.

They walked to the truck under a sky full of stars.

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The morning Malia left for Honolulu, the house was quiet.

Her suitcase stood by the door. The blue bedroom was bare. The blanket was folded on the corner of the bed. The small plain mallet sat in its box on the kitchen table. Tutu had put a soft cloth around it so it would not rattle in the suitcase.

"Phone?" Tutu asked, running through the list.

"Phone."

"Book?"

"Book."

"Lei?"

"You put one on me already."

"I will put another. Traveling Malia needs two leis. One for the plane. One for the other side."

She did not argue. Tutu tied a second lei around her neck, this one of plumeria and maile leaf.

"Mallet."

"Mallet."

"Scrap kapa."

"Scrap kapa, yes." Tutu had given her a small bundle. Three little strips. "To keep the hand alive," she had said. "A strip a month. One strip, three more hits each day than the day before. By the end of the school year, you will have hands that remember."

"Tutu."

"Yes."

"Tutu, I —"

Her throat closed.

"Not yet," said Tutu. "You cry at the airport. Not in the house. The house does not like crying in the morning."

Malia laughed a wet laugh.

"Okay."

They went out to the blue truck. Pōpoki the cat watched them from the porch railing. He did not look impressed.

At the airport, they stood in the little open-air terminal. The check-in line was short. A tourist with a red face was asking loudly about his surfboard. Somewhere a child was crying because he did not want to leave.

Malia understood the child.

"Tutu —"

"Now you may cry."

She did. A little. Tutu held her.

"I will see you next summer," Tutu whispered into her hair. "And you will call me every week."

"Every week."

"And you will bring your mallet to your desk every day."

"Every day."

"Everything good is a lot of steps."

"Good. Now go. Your plane will not wait."

Malia did a honi with her grandmother. Forehead to forehead. Nose to nose. A small, quick breath together.

She walked to the gate without looking back. At the gate she turned. Tutu was still there, one hand lifted. Malia waved. Tutu nodded.

She got on the plane.

***

Honolulu in the late afternoon was loud. Traffic. Horns. The smell of exhaust mixed with the smell of the sea. Her mother met her at the airport with a big hug and a small shave ice. Her father was still in Alaska but would be back in two weeks.

"Keiki," her mother said, looking at her. "You look different."

"How?"

"I don't know yet. Different. Let me look at you some more and I'll tell you."

They drove home across the bridge. The Diamond Head profile rose in the evening light. Malia watched it and thought, *my other home.*

At home, her own bedroom was just as she had left it. Her posters. Her stuffed octopus from a third-grade trip. Her desk, which she had not really used much last year because she had preferred the kitchen counter. Her bookshelf.

She put her suitcase down. She unzipped it slowly.

She took out the small plain mallet in its cloth.

She went to her desk. She moved some loose pens out of the way. She set the cloth down. She unwrapped the mallet.

It looked small in this room. Small and plain and a little out of place.

It looked exactly right.

She set it on the corner of her desk where she would see it every morning when she sat down.

She sat down.

She looked at the mallet.

She looked at her phone, which was on the desk next to it. The screen was full of messages. Her friends had heard she was back. There was a plan for a sleepover on Friday. There was a meme about a raccoon.

Then she turned the phone over and put it face down on the desk, next to the mallet.

She opened a notebook she had bought at the airport. She took out a pencil.

She drew.

She drew the pattern Tutu had taught her the first week, the simple one — the one that looked like waves going in two directions. She drew it slowly, the way she had learned to beat the bark. One small line at a time. Not trying to be fast. Not trying to be good. Just trying to be present.

Her hand remembered.

Outside her window, the lights of Honolulu were coming on, block by block. A horn sounded on the street below. A breeze moved the curtain.

Malia drew another line.

And another.

And another.

The mallet sat quiet next to her hand.

***

In the weeks that followed, Malia got back into the rhythm of Honolulu life.

School started. Seventh grade. New teachers. A new locker combination that she kept forgetting. Keilani had grown an inch over the summer and announced to anyone who would listen that she was now officially tall. Hana had gotten braces and was cheerful about them. Brooke had decided she wanted to be a marine biologist. Lila had cut her hair short and looked very serious about it.

The four of them fell right back into their routine, as friends do when they are good friends. They walked to school together. They ate lunch on the same bench under the monkeypod tree. They did homework at Hana's house on Wednesdays. Malia told them stories about the summer — about Pono and Kai and Mr. Aoki and Tutu — and they listened and asked questions and did not roll their eyes, which was a kind of love.

"Can we come with you next summer?" Keilani asked one day at lunch.

"All of you?"

"Not all of us. Maybe two of us. For a week."

Malia thought about it. "I would have to ask Tutu."

"Would she say yes?"

"I don't know. Maybe. It would be different. It wouldn't be just Tutu and me."

"We would be very respectful," Hana said solemnly.

"Yes," said Brooke. "And we would do chores."

"And I would be quiet," said Lila, which made everyone laugh, because Lila was already quiet.

"I will ask her," Malia said. "But I can't promise."

"Fair," said Keilani.

At home, Malia kept her small plain mallet on her desk. She did her five minutes of pattern-drawing every night. Some nights she drew in pencil. Some nights in pen. Some nights she tried the old patterns. Some nights she made up her own, though she always ended by saying, out loud, to herself, "that one is not for the real kapa. That one is for practice." Because, as Tutu had said, you cannot say your own sentence until you have learned the old ones.

On Sundays, sometimes, her father drove her to the beach at Kailua in the early morning and they sat on the sand and watched the sun come up. Those were quiet times. Her father did not ask her many questions. He seemed to know that she was carrying something now that she had not been carrying before, and that she would tell him about it when she had words.

"She didn't say she was proud."

"She said some other things to me that mean she is proud. She does not use the word much."

"Did you hear about the mask?"

"I heard. She sent me a picture."

"She did?"

"She did. A very bad picture, because your Tutu's phone camera has seen better days. I could mostly see a blur with a root under the eye."

Malia laughed.

"It was a beautiful blur, keiki."

"Thanks, Dad."

"And she said —" he paused, then smiled — "she said you listened well."

Malia looked at the ocean. A pelican dropped itself straight down into the water and came up with a fish.

"I'm still learning how, Dad."

"That's the correct answer. Keep giving it for the next forty years."

They watched the sun finish rising. Then they went home for breakfast.

***

On the first really cold day of the year — cold for Honolulu, anyway, which meant sixty-eight degrees — Malia came home from school and found a package on the dining table.

It was from the Big Island.

Inside was a small piece of kapa. Not a big one. About the size of a greeting card. It had three patterns on it — nalu, the wave; moena, the mat; and a small shape she did not quite recognize. A circle with three lines coming out of the bottom.

There was a note in Tutu's round slow writing.

*Keiki. I finished this one for you. The third pattern is new. I have been thinking about it since August. It is the pattern of a root. I decided it belongs on kapa now. Hang it where you will see it in the morning. Work your mallet every day. I am well. Kiss your parents for me.*

*— Tutu*

Malia held the little piece of kapa in both hands for a long time.

Then she took it to her room. She found a piece of string and two small nails. Her father helped her hammer the nails into the wall above her desk. She tied the kapa by its top corners and hung it.

It was not a big piece. It was not elegant. It was not museum-worthy.

It was, absolutely, her first piece of art from home.

Her hand went up and touched the small round root in the corner.

"Hi, Tutu," she said quietly.

The kapa did not answer. It did not need to.

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EPILOGUE

One year later, on a small plane out of Honolulu, a twelve-year-old girl named Malia Kahananui pressed her forehead to the window as the Big Island came up underneath her. In her lap was a small cloth bag. In the bag was a small plain mallet. Its handle was worn a little smoother than it had been the year before, on one particular place in the middle.

She had drawn her five minutes every night. Almost every night. There had been three nights she had missed — two because she had been sick, one because she had simply fallen asleep at her desk. Tutu had told her, on a phone call, that three nights out of three hundred and some was a good record. "Better than mine, some years."

She had written to Tutu every week. Short letters. About school, about her friends, about the little cactus on her windowsill that would not grow, about the kapa above her desk which had settled into its place and become, slowly, the most important thing in her bedroom.

Tutu had written back. Not every week, because Tutu thought writing every week was a silly thing for old people to do. But often enough. Short letters, round slow handwriting, news of the dogs in the village, news of a new baby, news of Mr. Aoki's most recent outrage against his cabbage.

Malia had told them. They had agreed. They were coming in July.

The plane dropped lower. The lava fields spread out below. The sea glittered.

Her hand reached into the little cloth bag and touched the mallet.

The plane dropped. The wheels kissed the runway. Malia stood up before anyone else. She walked off the plane into the bright warm air.

Tutu was at the gate in a red dress, smaller than last year by maybe half an inch, with a lei of pikake around her neck.

They did not say much at first. The honi. The breath. The forehead-to-forehead thing.

Then Tutu stepped back and looked at her granddaughter.

"Ready?" she asked.

Malia touched the small bag at her hip.

"If you are."

Tutu smiled — not the small corner smile, the full one — and together they walked out into the Big Island summer.

On the way to the blue truck, Tutu said something Malia did not quite catch. It was soft and a little in Hawaiian. She asked her grandmother to repeat it.

"Not important, keiki. I was only saying the prayer. For the hands."

"Oh."

"I say it for mine, every morning. And now for yours, too, when you are not here to say it yourself."

Malia stopped on the asphalt of the little parking lot. Her eyes stung. Tutu kept walking, and then, after a few steps, stopped too. She turned around.

"Are you going to stand there all day?"

"I'm coming."

"Come, then."

Malia caught up. She took her grandmother's arm.

They walked together to the truck. The sun was in the mango trees. The sea was bright. The island, as always, was enormous and small at the same time. The work was waiting. There was always work. But work, Malia had learned, was the thing that carried the love. Love that did no work was just a feeling. Love that did work was a life.

She opened the truck door for her grandmother. She helped her in. She walked around to her own side.

She climbed in. She closed the door. The engine turned over. Tutu hummed her mother's old work-song — that song without words — as she pulled out of the parking lot.

They drove home.

In the back of the truck, the small cloth bag sat on the seat beside Malia's foot. Inside it, the small plain mallet rested, a little smoother in the middle than it had been a year ago. It had been across the ocean and back. It had drawn, under a girl's hand, the patterns of waves and mats and roots in a bedroom in Honolulu. It had come home now, though home was a word that meant more than one place.

Tutu turned onto the coast road. The sea spread out gold on one side. The lava fields ran black on the other.

Malia took a slow breath. She began, quietly, the prayer for the hands.

She was ready to begin.

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THE END

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Every culture in the world carries treasures of craft that could not have been invented anywhere else. The kapa of Hawaiʻi, the calligraphy of Japan, the weaving of the Andes, the carved wood of West Africa, the embroidered cloth of Palestine, the icon-painting of old Russia, the baskets of the Cherokee, the shadow-puppets of Java — each of these is a gift that a people have tended over long time, often through hard time, in the hands of patient elders and the slowly learning hands of their grandchildren.

These crafts belong first to the people who keep them. They are not ours to take. But they do belong, in a deeper sense, to all of humanity — because every time a grandmother teaches a child to shape bark or hold a brush or bend a reed, something is kept alive that the whole human family is richer for. The truth is one, but the cups we drink it from are many, and each cup is beautiful.

The thread almost broke in many places. In many places it did not. Wherever you are, you are part of the next knot.

— Crimson Ark Publishing

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